Give some time, I just need a little time.
I fell off the track, now
I can't go back
I'm not like that
And girls lie too much
And boys act too tough
Enough is enough
I feel like I'm going insane. One moment I'm fine, then I'm depressed, and then I'm angry above control.
Has anyone ever felt like crashing their car into a tree, or flipping it and dying on impacted?
Probably not, I just really want to die. I want to smoke weed, but I'm too afraid of crashing and when I get like this, I don't want my meds..
It feels Really Amazing in a way... I just feel so alive, and I'm pretty sure this is going to end badly .. but I don't care.
It's like sliding the blade across your wrist , and smiling, because at that very moment you felt alive for once in your life.
And I would cut, if going through wasn't more painful than cutting could ever be.
I know if I went far, far away from here I would be okay, but I don't think that's going to happen.
Tomorrows therapy. I know she's going to put me back on my meds.. but I'm going to tell her everything I've written.. and hopefully she won't send me away..or hopefully she will.. I haven't decided.
Later.
I can't go back
I'm not like that
And girls lie too much
And boys act too tough
Enough is enough
I feel like I'm going insane. One moment I'm fine, then I'm depressed, and then I'm angry above control.
Has anyone ever felt like crashing their car into a tree, or flipping it and dying on impacted?
Probably not, I just really want to die. I want to smoke weed, but I'm too afraid of crashing and when I get like this, I don't want my meds..
It feels Really Amazing in a way... I just feel so alive, and I'm pretty sure this is going to end badly .. but I don't care.
It's like sliding the blade across your wrist , and smiling, because at that very moment you felt alive for once in your life.
And I would cut, if going through wasn't more painful than cutting could ever be.
I know if I went far, far away from here I would be okay, but I don't think that's going to happen.
Tomorrows therapy. I know she's going to put me back on my meds.. but I'm going to tell her everything I've written.. and hopefully she won't send me away..or hopefully she will.. I haven't decided.
Later.