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Is it really her that I love?
maybe it's just the idea, the idea of having someone, something, to talk too, to hold, to love?
Love - Love is a strong word and I don't think you can even truthfully mean those words until you fully
understand the meaning.
Will I ever understand?
And he's - well, He's obsessive, jealous, and controlling..So, Why do I desperately need him when life gets hard?
Co-dependent That word keeps ringing in my ears, like a tasteless disease.
Why can't I break this? Why can't I just pick up the pieces? Why can't I just keep from falling apart?
I wish I was stronger.
Every time I see her part of me wants to cry, and the other part of me wants to hold her and pretend like nothing ever happened and were both still the same, and that I still love her just as much..I do love her just as much as I always have..but there's something inside of me holding me back.. I'm waiting for it..the bomb shell
I wish I could just wake up and realize those days are over, but part of me can't and never will.
maybe it's just the idea, the idea of having someone, something, to talk too, to hold, to love?
Love - Love is a strong word and I don't think you can even truthfully mean those words until you fully
understand the meaning.
Will I ever understand?
And he's - well, He's obsessive, jealous, and controlling..So, Why do I desperately need him when life gets hard?
Co-dependent That word keeps ringing in my ears, like a tasteless disease.
Why can't I break this? Why can't I just pick up the pieces? Why can't I just keep from falling apart?
I wish I was stronger.
Every time I see her part of me wants to cry, and the other part of me wants to hold her and pretend like nothing ever happened and were both still the same, and that I still love her just as much..I do love her just as much as I always have..but there's something inside of me holding me back.. I'm waiting for it..the bomb shell
I wish I could just wake up and realize those days are over, but part of me can't and never will.