A confession of sorts.
I have a small explanation to make, and am quite ashamed to make it. It seems that everyone has been taking me quite seriously, which I am not at all accustomed to! Ha ha ha! You have to understand, my former best friend Gure-san and I liked playing pranks on people pretending to be things and feel things we didn’t feel! Naturally, I felt quite surprised when people actually fell for my lone act! It is a sign of my wonderful talent as an entertainer!
However, it has come to my attention that I may have taken things too far, especially because I didn’t have Tori-san here to hold me back! However, Tori-san told me that he figures I think this place isn’t real. Up to a certain point, it’s not. He’s told me I like living in my own little world, where people don’t get hurt!
I realized after Allen returned what I’d done, how I deceived him, because it was no longer a joke to him. Everyone who considered themselves part of my family… I’m sorry. I was simply trying to amuse people, getting them back to their usual selves in such a disorienting place, but… people are too nice here, or naïve, or simply horrible judges of characters. And I must admit, I also like the attention! Ha ha ha!
So, anyhow, if I ever hurt anyone, I’m sorry… I’m really sorry. No, I don’t view you as my family, or most people as my friends. I don’t really know how to deal with my own family, let alone the people I meet.
Everyone has asked me how I stayed sane when I was transported here when everyone else was panicking and confused.
It’s simple. I am still simply expecting to wake up.
I’ve had my fair share of vivid nightmares, and not just the dirty ones! In a way, this all feels like a bad dream, almost like a test to see how linked I am to the family even though I live outside the family premises. It wouldn’t be the first time Akito has penetrated my dreams… if so I probably failed. He has given me my greatest wish, the thing that would offend him the most, and I took it, and…
Tori-san, I love you. But… I know you are not real. You’re not this nice, nor do you smile so often and to everyone you meet. I love you, and I’ve had a wonderful time, but this confusion is making my curse act up and my body weaker every time it happens. I’m cold. You know snakes don’t live very long, do you? Perhaps this is Akito’s passive-aggressive way of…
…
Tori-san, being with you is killing me. But… even if it wasn’t real, I’m glad I got to experience it, being with you, loving you, watching you smile and watching it reach your eyes all alone, especially for me.
But… I can’t help but fear that if I wake up from… this dream, coma, whatever, Tori-san, the real Tori-san, will see the dream when he erases the memories. And… I don’t want to have to deal with that.
I… my head hurts. I’m going to the city, and hope everyone, figments of my imagination or otherwise, will forget about me. Even if it isn’t real, I don’t want to have hurt people the way I hurt my brother. I’m sorry I only realized it by now, and I’m sorry it had to come to this.
My head hurts a lot! I hope I get sent back soon. Or maybe it’ll happen if I die here? That usually signifies the end of the dream, right?
Allen-dea -- Allen… may I have your gun?
However, it has come to my attention that I may have taken things too far, especially because I didn’t have Tori-san here to hold me back! However, Tori-san told me that he figures I think this place isn’t real. Up to a certain point, it’s not. He’s told me I like living in my own little world, where people don’t get hurt!
I realized after Allen returned what I’d done, how I deceived him, because it was no longer a joke to him. Everyone who considered themselves part of my family… I’m sorry. I was simply trying to amuse people, getting them back to their usual selves in such a disorienting place, but… people are too nice here, or naïve, or simply horrible judges of characters. And I must admit, I also like the attention! Ha ha ha!
So, anyhow, if I ever hurt anyone, I’m sorry… I’m really sorry. No, I don’t view you as my family, or most people as my friends. I don’t really know how to deal with my own family, let alone the people I meet.
Everyone has asked me how I stayed sane when I was transported here when everyone else was panicking and confused.
It’s simple. I am still simply expecting to wake up.
I’ve had my fair share of vivid nightmares, and not just the dirty ones! In a way, this all feels like a bad dream, almost like a test to see how linked I am to the family even though I live outside the family premises. It wouldn’t be the first time Akito has penetrated my dreams… if so I probably failed. He has given me my greatest wish, the thing that would offend him the most, and I took it, and…
Tori-san, I love you. But… I know you are not real. You’re not this nice, nor do you smile so often and to everyone you meet. I love you, and I’ve had a wonderful time, but this confusion is making my curse act up and my body weaker every time it happens. I’m cold. You know snakes don’t live very long, do you? Perhaps this is Akito’s passive-aggressive way of…
…
Tori-san, being with you is killing me. But… even if it wasn’t real, I’m glad I got to experience it, being with you, loving you, watching you smile and watching it reach your eyes all alone, especially for me.
But… I can’t help but fear that if I wake up from… this dream, coma, whatever, Tori-san, the real Tori-san, will see the dream when he erases the memories. And… I don’t want to have to deal with that.
I… my head hurts. I’m going to the city, and hope everyone, figments of my imagination or otherwise, will forget about me. Even if it isn’t real, I don’t want to have hurt people the way I hurt my brother. I’m sorry I only realized it by now, and I’m sorry it had to come to this.
My head hurts a lot! I hope I get sent back soon. Or maybe it’ll happen if I die here? That usually signifies the end of the dream, right?
Allen-dea -- Allen… may I have your gun?