Another long one
So things have changed a great deal since I last posted.
After Alex's comment I'm not as opposed to going home, except for the fact that I would most likely not have a job. I can't sit around for another summer. I did talk to someone at the church office and the receptionist job will most likely be mine if I want it. I'm just not sure if I want to do that again and I think I might want to do a second job if the hours and pay are going to be the same. And I won't have Mike or David to keep me company(hahaha).
I did not get the Conference Services job here on campus. That whole process war frustrating. I had a job offer at the library, but I don't think I want to take that. I would be working full-time doing the same work that I do now, the same work that just about drives me crazy for the six hours/week that I do. The other con is that I would have to pay for my own housing, which I can't really do right now.
I did get approved for living off-campus, so that will happen. I am also saving money because I will not have a meal plan.
I talked to my mom about all of this and she is supportive about whatever I decide. Yesterday I told her about my realization about dad. She said that she really understands about not wanting to be home this summer.
I guess last night dad asked about whether I got the first job. She said no and told him what happened and he (at least the way she relayed it) sounded sad and said something like "but she still doesn't want to come home does she?" Mom said something like "I think she realizes that he has better job opportunities there." I asked if he has any inkling of how I'm feeling and she that he might.
I'm just praying about the situation and the wisdom as to what action to take. At some point I have to tell him, but I think I'm going to approach it differently than originally planned. Maybe as a "If I'm going to be home, we are going to have to work on things" or something. It is just something that I am going to have to save for the right time.
I'm not as stressed or tired as I have been the last couple of days. I still have three papers due Friday, one of which I'm going to try to write tonight.
If you happen to get this before 5:30 please say a prayer for my patience. I have a lesson between 4:45-5:30 and this will be the first time I've ever played with an accompanist and I'm also very unconfident about my piece right now.
I also have a funny story having to do with David. I think it is funny at least... but that will have to wait for later.
Everything will be ok.
After Alex's comment I'm not as opposed to going home, except for the fact that I would most likely not have a job. I can't sit around for another summer. I did talk to someone at the church office and the receptionist job will most likely be mine if I want it. I'm just not sure if I want to do that again and I think I might want to do a second job if the hours and pay are going to be the same. And I won't have Mike or David to keep me company(hahaha).
I did not get the Conference Services job here on campus. That whole process war frustrating. I had a job offer at the library, but I don't think I want to take that. I would be working full-time doing the same work that I do now, the same work that just about drives me crazy for the six hours/week that I do. The other con is that I would have to pay for my own housing, which I can't really do right now.
I did get approved for living off-campus, so that will happen. I am also saving money because I will not have a meal plan.
I talked to my mom about all of this and she is supportive about whatever I decide. Yesterday I told her about my realization about dad. She said that she really understands about not wanting to be home this summer.
I guess last night dad asked about whether I got the first job. She said no and told him what happened and he (at least the way she relayed it) sounded sad and said something like "but she still doesn't want to come home does she?" Mom said something like "I think she realizes that he has better job opportunities there." I asked if he has any inkling of how I'm feeling and she that he might.
I'm just praying about the situation and the wisdom as to what action to take. At some point I have to tell him, but I think I'm going to approach it differently than originally planned. Maybe as a "If I'm going to be home, we are going to have to work on things" or something. It is just something that I am going to have to save for the right time.
I'm not as stressed or tired as I have been the last couple of days. I still have three papers due Friday, one of which I'm going to try to write tonight.
If you happen to get this before 5:30 please say a prayer for my patience. I have a lesson between 4:45-5:30 and this will be the first time I've ever played with an accompanist and I'm also very unconfident about my piece right now.
I also have a funny story having to do with David. I think it is funny at least... but that will have to wait for later.
Everything will be ok.