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okay so im in school and im bored so i decided to update. anyways i got a new job...well actually i have 2 jobs now. but im quitting limited too because my new job is much better. ed's aunt is hiring me for this answering service place she works at where i can go looking like a bum, sit on my ass and smoke cigs whenever i want and get paid $8 an hour. i start training today which is pretty cool. anyways....right now i am in the process of trying to find a senior week house which has been a pain in the ass because not everyone is cooperating very well. other than that not too much is going on in my life. im just looking forward to my birthday which by the way is in 13 days!!! and summer of course. i am so sick of school and getting up early and im very sick of cold yucky weather. and i miss the beach and laying out by the pool and being able to get up in the morning get in my car and go whever the hell i want...that may sound wierd but it was just a good feeling for me. im also looking forward to spending the summer with ben...he was telling me last night about all these things hes looking forward to experiencing with me like he said he cant wait till it snows and we can walk around in it and then kiss me in a big pile of it and he cant wait until summer when we can lay on the beach all day together and just take nice drives with the windows down and watching the sunset on the beach. and then he really made me cry when he said "and i cant wait till our wedding day and when ill get to celebrate mothers day with you." now i know alot of you may think were crazy because of that but i really do see myself being with ben for the rest of my life. its not like i havent had my fun or havent gotten the chance to experience other relationships...and seriously if u asked me how many times my heart has been broken i would tell u to look at the sky and count the stars. so im done with all that im done with being sad and im gonna do everything i can not to mess anything up between me and ben and he promised me the same thing b/c we've both had our share of heartaches and we both know much it sucks as well as how happy we make eachother. i just love every minute i spend with him and i know i dont ever wanna let that go. i need him in my life and i know he needs me...we keep eachother in check and its nice to have that security that u know if anything goes wrong he'll be there to help you through it . i guess thats all i have to say right now...sorry for rambling.
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