Dec 14, 2007 10:12
Thoughts of you swim through my mind, they fly like blackbirds, float like clouds. I've watched from a distance, for I can only come so close before you get depressed again, before your love for me overflows. I will hold my tongue so that you can be happy with her, and I'll dutifully hold you up when you want me to. I wish I could say sorry for our failed love, because I never meant to leave you like I did, but I'll sleep it off instead. I will put my foot in that last open door, and I will keep it there for as long as it takes until we can find a way for it to stay open. For now I will be satisfied with your whispers when her back is turned, with your hidden smiles, little laughs, your quiet sadness.
I will remain here, contemplating you, watching your lifeless love, no doubt full of false pretenses. Does she know? Does she know?
Your hard hands and your funny little smirk reminds me of the way we fucked, anywhere and everywhere, whenever you could have me. Lay me down another dream and fuck me until we can't move, like all those times before, hoping for that basement door to stay locked. Why do we hide our eyes when she's nearby? I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry but a little birdie told me you miss me. And I'm ever so patient.
I never wanted it to get here, but we never wanted to stay. Where's the fun in chasing if nobody's running...?
I will wait for our little secret to cease to be a dream. The day you stand up and face it, the day we finally believe.
I know something you don't know
Do you shiver at the sound?
My secret, oh, he loves me so
...Ashes, ashes we all fall down.