Take Me
With everything in my life that has happened in the past 9 months, you'd think that I would have lost it now and just gone insane. Yet I have NOT...I still stand today just as tall and proud as I did day one back in January. Life sucks sometimes but you have to move on and grow from every experience. Well lately my heart's ben torn in two, too many times to count...I don't understand the POINT to love...yet I put my foot down and I'm back at square one again with one that I never thought I could catch again. Mostly I'm lost and confused on my feelings. I know HOW I feel...but half of the time, I don't know WHAT to feel and WHY I should feel that way. I'm the type of person to always do what I feel is right with no questions asked and I rarely second-guess things. Yet lately I've been completely intuative in my current relations...and I've thought that I knew best and what I wanted...and now here I am with everything sitting in front of me laid out like a platter and here I am. Just well...SITTING here...NOT knowing what I want or what I need or what to do. Its like I've lost me inside myself. And I have NOO clue how to find myself once more. Though I have so many things lay in front of me to chose from, I still chose to sit back and question every move and decision I make. No matter what I think I know but in the end it seems I know nothing. I've been totally confused in my own life...you think you know someone...but you know no one if you don't even know yourself. So day after day I am here...but I am not here emotionaly. I'm lost in translation almost. I wish I knew more than I can say. I guess that's it for today. Or at least for right now. All those who read this, have a good day...All those who know me, love ya all and I'll ttyl take care!
~~Becca~~
~~Becca~~