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I am having all 4 of my wisdom teeth taken out tomorrow at 10:45 I am hella nervouse. I hope it doesn’t hurt to much but I think I will be fine. I am going to be so happy for some time off work all I just finished my 9th day straight it really sucked. I mean cummon do I really need to work 37 hours a week, its insane.
Sean might come by tomorrow. I really don’t want to see him all swollen and drugged up I am going to look like shit. But I really do need to see him. That and I need to think. I am kinda afraid that if I see him tomorrow that he going to say I love you. He let it slip the other night on the phone I know he ment it but he didn’t mean to say it. He wanted me to forget that he said because he knew the only way I wanted to hear it is in person. He was thinking and it sliped. The problem is I don’t LOVE him back. I care about him I like being with him but I don’t love him. I fell bad because I don’t share the same emotions as him but hell we haven’t even been together for 2 month (4 days he told me that today). The same thing happen with steven I freaked out the first time he said he loved me because I didn’t love him back but after a little while that changed and I loved him too and it hurt me so bad when he left cause he was my everything. So maybe I just need to give sean more time and I might fall in love with him too. He great guy he means a lot to me but I know I don’t love him yet and I don’t know what to so about it. I just want to give it time and see what happens.
I talked with the people that had my car yesterday and they said that the insurance company aproved the work and my car was in the shop so I should get my baby back soon. I sooo miss my mustang. I hate not having it. I didn’t realize how much I relied on it until I didn’t have it for awhile. Its been 3 weeks and I going insane I hope to have it before I have to go back to work again. I hate havin to bum rides off of people and havin my mom take me everywhere.
Well I need to go to bed because I need some sleep.
Sean might come by tomorrow. I really don’t want to see him all swollen and drugged up I am going to look like shit. But I really do need to see him. That and I need to think. I am kinda afraid that if I see him tomorrow that he going to say I love you. He let it slip the other night on the phone I know he ment it but he didn’t mean to say it. He wanted me to forget that he said because he knew the only way I wanted to hear it is in person. He was thinking and it sliped. The problem is I don’t LOVE him back. I care about him I like being with him but I don’t love him. I fell bad because I don’t share the same emotions as him but hell we haven’t even been together for 2 month (4 days he told me that today). The same thing happen with steven I freaked out the first time he said he loved me because I didn’t love him back but after a little while that changed and I loved him too and it hurt me so bad when he left cause he was my everything. So maybe I just need to give sean more time and I might fall in love with him too. He great guy he means a lot to me but I know I don’t love him yet and I don’t know what to so about it. I just want to give it time and see what happens.
I talked with the people that had my car yesterday and they said that the insurance company aproved the work and my car was in the shop so I should get my baby back soon. I sooo miss my mustang. I hate not having it. I didn’t realize how much I relied on it until I didn’t have it for awhile. Its been 3 weeks and I going insane I hope to have it before I have to go back to work again. I hate havin to bum rides off of people and havin my mom take me everywhere.
Well I need to go to bed because I need some sleep.