Not that anyone really wants to know...

[heavenly_dark_7]

I screwed up. I liked someone and we both fucked it up because they do not want to see me hurt when I leave ship and I fucked it because of how I ended it so that I would not cry in front of them. I need support and hope. Just wish me luck in fixing it because they will be on-ship with me until after I leave. I really like them and they said they liked me before I said anything. i know they care...so why do I always lose the people who actually like me?

no matter what i do i seem to lose those I care about.

I hate crying....