Happy New Year

[heavenly44]

I can't believe it is already 2019. This has been a really rough year. My mom's illness keeps getting worse. But, all I can do is help her cope until there is nothing more that I can do. I am however, sick of people telling me to count my blessings. I know that my life isn't complete shit, but I need them to stop trivializing the weight on my shoulder. It's not easy and I am doing the best I can. Right now, I am starting to see a therapist again which frankly I think I need. I am trying to carve out time to focus on myself. I need down time, but no one is going to hand that to me, I have to go seek it out and just make myself think about me first. But, I survived in a lot better shape going into the new year than 2017 or 2018 so there is that.

On the upside, I have started bingewatching shows on my prep. I don't care that is me time and I am sick of feeling guilty for taking one of my two breaks for myself. I have my headphones, cup of tea or coffee and wrap myself up on the couch and stream wahtever strikes my fancy and trust me it makes dealing with a classroom full of fourth graders infinitely easier.

I also go home feeling less worn out and ready to face home routines.

So things I have gotten into this year:

Insecure (all caught up)
Elite
The Hookup Plan
SweetBitter
Currently watching: Game of Thrones but just started s2 so I am going to wait to do a write up about until after i finish s2.

Anyways HAPPY NEW YEAR FOLKS..