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Crikey was supposed to try and post every week or day, I actually cannot remember. I think I post more on facebook. I seriously need Live Journal as a pin on my page even to update arbitrary. I sense this journal will be left for the children to read when I am older and crossed the mortal coil.
A lot has happened to me in the last few months. I feel I have been suffering with SAD and went through a couple of months of depression and at least a month of that in a dark place. Very negative about everything. I feel that I was at the verge of burnout. My business was taking over my life, and I was not creating balance within. Specifically balance within my mind, body and soul. So it was all meant to happen for me to realise that my spirituality can and will not take over my life. As spiritual as I am, I felt that it was just so over-bearing and I needed to find a stable ground. I stopped literally for around 2 weeks, and this for me was so healing. Luckily the weather was nice so enabled me to go out into nature and connect and also there was sunshine. You really notice the lack thereof of that yellow ball in the sky. This is when I really miss South Africa and the constant sunshine and heat. This is what really makes my heart sing and smile.
After the two weeks was up. I came off the anti-depressants. The second reason was that they made me sick and obviously I am a suffererer of emetophobia, so immediately took myself off. I also was due to go and have some CBT therapy but the lady was very impressed with my overall being and felt that I had everything in hand. I will explain in more detail what actually put me over the edge and this is family related. Not my own family but Jon's. I will do this in the next post.
Since then I have a new lease on life and my creativity and inspiration has returned. I immediately pushed myself into making new jewellery for an upcoming Vintage and Craft fair which was held yesterday. I feel I have a different energy, more positive and I am less expectant of others and of myself. I now really take a notice of my energy levels and what my body is trying to say to me. I must take care of myself, not just for me, but for my children. A healthy and happy mummy is a must!
A lot has happened to me in the last few months. I feel I have been suffering with SAD and went through a couple of months of depression and at least a month of that in a dark place. Very negative about everything. I feel that I was at the verge of burnout. My business was taking over my life, and I was not creating balance within. Specifically balance within my mind, body and soul. So it was all meant to happen for me to realise that my spirituality can and will not take over my life. As spiritual as I am, I felt that it was just so over-bearing and I needed to find a stable ground. I stopped literally for around 2 weeks, and this for me was so healing. Luckily the weather was nice so enabled me to go out into nature and connect and also there was sunshine. You really notice the lack thereof of that yellow ball in the sky. This is when I really miss South Africa and the constant sunshine and heat. This is what really makes my heart sing and smile.
After the two weeks was up. I came off the anti-depressants. The second reason was that they made me sick and obviously I am a suffererer of emetophobia, so immediately took myself off. I also was due to go and have some CBT therapy but the lady was very impressed with my overall being and felt that I had everything in hand. I will explain in more detail what actually put me over the edge and this is family related. Not my own family but Jon's. I will do this in the next post.
Since then I have a new lease on life and my creativity and inspiration has returned. I immediately pushed myself into making new jewellery for an upcoming Vintage and Craft fair which was held yesterday. I feel I have a different energy, more positive and I am less expectant of others and of myself. I now really take a notice of my energy levels and what my body is trying to say to me. I must take care of myself, not just for me, but for my children. A healthy and happy mummy is a must!