too young for him they told her, waiting for the love of a traveling soldier

[heaven_found_me]

so i went to see deanne today. i told her about a lot of stuff that has been going on. i told her about how i drank last weekend and on new years eve a tad. i told her about hurting myself. i even told her about wut happened yesterday.... i told her about how i worry every time i come home for fear that my mom will suspect that i was drinking or doing sumthin else that im not supposed to. i told her about how im sleeping every chance i get... man i just spilled it all! i luv how easy i can talk to her. she gave me the name of someone else that i can talk to more often than once every 3 months. hopefully i like this lady. the last psycologist i had i didnt like. i just couldnt open up. i wish that deanne could be my full time councellor but i kno that she's super busy and has a lot of work on her hands.
but yea, she changed my meds. the meds i was on b4 solely helped wiht my depression and anxiety. my new meds tho will help with those 2 things but it will also give me sum energy and motivation to do something besides sleep. im reallly hoping that this med is the one. i hate feeling as if im a burden when im never content. i felt bad asking my mom if i could start going to councelling again but she seemed to think that i need it too so i guess that's wut we're going to do.
im gonna go work out with mymom tonite... hopefully that'll help me feel more... idk, with it?
so im out.
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