I AM YOURS TO DESTROY
well the girl who said i was perfect for her but i wasn't sexually attractive to her, she just came over and we watched t.v., then she asked if she could kiss me. so we kissed. i think she's just doing it to make me feel better. i really don't want your affection if it isn't sincere. she is so nice to me, why the hell would she want to fuck with my head/heart like this?!?! damn girls just have so much fun breaking me.
do they not want me to commit suicide so they can keep abusing me emotionally? like keeping the subject alive for further horrible testing and experiments. just for the sick delight of the twisted doctor?
i wish i never loved people, like girlfriend boyfriend kinda way. i wish i just didn't ever want to have love. wish i couldn't feel it. then they could never hurt me.
i sometimes like being depressed though. it almost feels good, while at the same time making me want to kill myself and cry. it's like when your this low, you feel you can't get any lower. so you almost feel invincible.
do they not want me to commit suicide so they can keep abusing me emotionally? like keeping the subject alive for further horrible testing and experiments. just for the sick delight of the twisted doctor?
i wish i never loved people, like girlfriend boyfriend kinda way. i wish i just didn't ever want to have love. wish i couldn't feel it. then they could never hurt me.
i sometimes like being depressed though. it almost feels good, while at the same time making me want to kill myself and cry. it's like when your this low, you feel you can't get any lower. so you almost feel invincible.