church.
so today i went to paul's grandfathers funeral. he was pretty much the greatest man i ever had the chance to meet once. all of the stories told were filled with live and love.
i also got very emotional. before the eulogies even begun. and it wasn't until after i got out of the church that i realized why.
when i was younger, my family and i went to church EVERY sunday. EVERY occassion. and as it faded away...my standards for life kind of did too.
i suppose it is true with any church or any religion that when you enter it, you can be overwhelmed with "power". that doesnt mean you have to believe in what the religion teaches, it's just an emotion that happens. like me. i don't neccissarily believe in god, but the emotion that each person in that church put towards the small things, like singing the hymns, cherishing the prayers; they all had something to be devoted too.
also, everyone in the minister spoke of safety and warmth within the church. i also felt this was a very powerful statement due to the simple fact that, as i looked around while a hymn was being sung, everyone looked peaceful. and weren't singing the lyrics for anyone other than themselves.
i'm actually considering going back to church. not for the religion. but fore the safety. the friends. the lack of judgement. the love. attending church, in my opinion, is a misconception.
all of this may not make sense to you, the reader. but this is my journal. and i write what i feel. and i know exactly what a few of you will say. so don't bother. i don't really want to hear your opinions unless they are suppotive. thank you.
i also got very emotional. before the eulogies even begun. and it wasn't until after i got out of the church that i realized why.
when i was younger, my family and i went to church EVERY sunday. EVERY occassion. and as it faded away...my standards for life kind of did too.
i suppose it is true with any church or any religion that when you enter it, you can be overwhelmed with "power". that doesnt mean you have to believe in what the religion teaches, it's just an emotion that happens. like me. i don't neccissarily believe in god, but the emotion that each person in that church put towards the small things, like singing the hymns, cherishing the prayers; they all had something to be devoted too.
also, everyone in the minister spoke of safety and warmth within the church. i also felt this was a very powerful statement due to the simple fact that, as i looked around while a hymn was being sung, everyone looked peaceful. and weren't singing the lyrics for anyone other than themselves.
i'm actually considering going back to church. not for the religion. but fore the safety. the friends. the lack of judgement. the love. attending church, in my opinion, is a misconception.
all of this may not make sense to you, the reader. but this is my journal. and i write what i feel. and i know exactly what a few of you will say. so don't bother. i don't really want to hear your opinions unless they are suppotive. thank you.