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-Man, I hate it when i get down. I dislike being depressed. It usually happens when I have too many thoughts in my mind. It's like an overload I guess...I don't know why i'm like that, I don't know why I have to think so much. I try not to show my true emotions though, I hate letting others know when i'm depressed because they always ask what is wrong. I never like sharing my thoughts for some reason, I think that's bad though, thoughts add up in my mind and make my condition worse.
- Aside from all the depression i've been fine, really. I'm grounded, I can't socialize on the phone or in person with friends. I got in trouble like, what, two weeks ago? I don't think my parents do it to make me feel like crap though, I think they know what's best for me. I've noticed that everytime I talk to my friends I get even more depressed, and my parents don't like that so they tell me I just shouldn't talk to them. They have a point...why talk to anyone who will make me feel bad?
- Eh, but the world turns, time goes on, and everyone grows older. I know eventually I will forget everything on my mind and my depression will go away. I have to look at things from a positive point of view. All this time I thought my parents just wanted to make me go through hell or something, but they don't they're just worried about me. I can't believe I even had negative thoughts about my parents like that either, I mean they're the sweetest parents I could have. I think what got me down the msot today was what I heard from one of my cousins. She said that now the lady that is with my uncle, is talking crap on us. So she joined in on my uncles game. I don't know why it bothers me so. I guess I hate ungrateful people. She was saying that we were all spoiled brats that had a weak mother. Even repeating that enrages me. What does she know, we actually love out mother and her son hates the hell out of her. I really feel like pulling off her hair for saying that though. I know, it's not the right thing, it's so hard to try to look at things from a positive point of view.
- It hurts you know, to trust someone a lot, and then have them stab you in the back.
- Ah, whatever I guess, i'm over it. Although, I doubt i'll feel secure with everyone now. I hope my depression doesn't rub off on any of you LOL I hope you guys ignore my entries. Anyways...i need something positive....oh I know, I just saved 1500 dollars in car insurance by switching to GEICO :o
- Aside from all the depression i've been fine, really. I'm grounded, I can't socialize on the phone or in person with friends. I got in trouble like, what, two weeks ago? I don't think my parents do it to make me feel like crap though, I think they know what's best for me. I've noticed that everytime I talk to my friends I get even more depressed, and my parents don't like that so they tell me I just shouldn't talk to them. They have a point...why talk to anyone who will make me feel bad?
- Eh, but the world turns, time goes on, and everyone grows older. I know eventually I will forget everything on my mind and my depression will go away. I have to look at things from a positive point of view. All this time I thought my parents just wanted to make me go through hell or something, but they don't they're just worried about me. I can't believe I even had negative thoughts about my parents like that either, I mean they're the sweetest parents I could have. I think what got me down the msot today was what I heard from one of my cousins. She said that now the lady that is with my uncle, is talking crap on us. So she joined in on my uncles game. I don't know why it bothers me so. I guess I hate ungrateful people. She was saying that we were all spoiled brats that had a weak mother. Even repeating that enrages me. What does she know, we actually love out mother and her son hates the hell out of her. I really feel like pulling off her hair for saying that though. I know, it's not the right thing, it's so hard to try to look at things from a positive point of view.
- It hurts you know, to trust someone a lot, and then have them stab you in the back.
- Ah, whatever I guess, i'm over it. Although, I doubt i'll feel secure with everyone now. I hope my depression doesn't rub off on any of you LOL I hope you guys ignore my entries. Anyways...i need something positive....oh I know, I just saved 1500 dollars in car insurance by switching to GEICO :o