NO i am not
HAHA ok so everyone keeps asking - but NO I AM NOT MARRIEDnor do I have a date to be made such. Ryan may have intended to marry me but he does a lot of things half ass and ecpexts them to follow through. Not me, and not this one. You have to actually prove to me that you want this, not just go get a license and BOOM I say yes... NOT. And on top of that he is the world's greatest liar, yet I stay with him?!?! I know I know, my bad. Yes dammit I know. But I love him. I feel like I need to give him a chance to get right. But dammit he just lies and lies and lies about everything. Now I want to cry. Why can't things just go right for once? I hate to ask why - I always think of Job (from the Bible DUH) whenever I ask WHY ME?!?! I know better to not ask why me but ohh sometimes it feel like my world is just cursed with bad luck. One thing after the next, I just want to be happy. Is that so much to ask? Damn. It feels like the million dollar question that no one can afford to answer. DAMN.