My First Bad Day at College.
..awful day.
Getting my tests back, not getting the grade I feel I deserve.
Stressing out over all this damn studying is not worth it.
I guess I am just trying too hard.
Maybe if I didnt try at all, I would ace these bitches..
Nah, not really.
I don't know what I'm doing wrong, but it's not good to not know what it is I'm messing up on.
I just am so disappointed in myself; it's unreal.
Today I feel like I'm messing up on everything.
From school to Nick...
I hope not.
He is the only thing I truthly need.
Everyone's got their thing going with their sorority stuff.
I think I said it true at the beginning of this year when I figured it wouldn't be me.
Pushing this whole Delta Zeta thing on myself is kinda bringing me down.
It's not like I need something to be involved in. I honestly am busy as hell w/o the sorority mess. I am meeting plenty of awesome girls w/o it. I just feel like I should like it. But I dont.
I think I might be putting too much expectations on myself and wow, i am most definately feeling it.
College is awesome.
But i shouldnt be in rush to make it the time of your life.
I got 4 years.
Maybe not all 4 years here at CU.
maybe
Im just overwhelmed, stressed, and tired.
I dont feel good.
I want to lay down and sleep my monday naps for 7 days.
No not really.
But kinda.
I need to go out this weekend.
I need to be around Nick for more than 2 days a month.
I need to have infinite amounts of Dr. Pepper.
I need to go to the beach and sleep under the stars.
Getting my tests back, not getting the grade I feel I deserve.
Stressing out over all this damn studying is not worth it.
I guess I am just trying too hard.
Maybe if I didnt try at all, I would ace these bitches..
Nah, not really.
I don't know what I'm doing wrong, but it's not good to not know what it is I'm messing up on.
I just am so disappointed in myself; it's unreal.
Today I feel like I'm messing up on everything.
From school to Nick...
I hope not.
He is the only thing I truthly need.
Everyone's got their thing going with their sorority stuff.
I think I said it true at the beginning of this year when I figured it wouldn't be me.
Pushing this whole Delta Zeta thing on myself is kinda bringing me down.
It's not like I need something to be involved in. I honestly am busy as hell w/o the sorority mess. I am meeting plenty of awesome girls w/o it. I just feel like I should like it. But I dont.
I think I might be putting too much expectations on myself and wow, i am most definately feeling it.
College is awesome.
But i shouldnt be in rush to make it the time of your life.
I got 4 years.
Maybe not all 4 years here at CU.
maybe
Im just overwhelmed, stressed, and tired.
I dont feel good.
I want to lay down and sleep my monday naps for 7 days.
No not really.
But kinda.
I need to go out this weekend.
I need to be around Nick for more than 2 days a month.
I need to have infinite amounts of Dr. Pepper.
I need to go to the beach and sleep under the stars.