let down #... i stopped counting a while ago

[heatherxcore]

i hate being disappointed in people, but it seems to be happening more and more. people bail on things last minute and leave me hanging and im finally getting to the point that i cant handle it anymore. and i know i cant compare my life to any other persons, but im feeling like the grass is greener everywhere but here. maybe i just have to accept that my life is sub-par, but i dont think thats fair. i dont ask for very much, i dont think, so when im let down its a big hurt. and if people would stop thinking about themselves they would realize that im beyond appreciative for all small acts of kindness in my direction.

i have a lot more on my plate than i let people think or see, but they still need to realize that my plates not empty. so screw those people who just dont care.