the low down
And she's back. I have no stick-to-it-ness when it comes to being stuck in our junk-filled "office" with the computers. I hate it in here. And sadly there is not much to be improved about this situation unless we unload a lot of stuff. And that takes motivation. Loooooooooser.
Anyhow, while I'm in here I might as well catch up with my journaling. My big achievement was surviving the month of May. As May is traditionally my bad month with a slew of dates that have to do with my mom and of course, last year's feat of having a nervous breakdown. This year I had limited therapy because of the holiday but I managed to get by. A heaviness settled on me the day before the 27th and I sat with that feeling until the end of the month. June, however, has washed that out of my hair and I am feeling noticably better. I am learning to deal with these minor moodswings albeit slowly. I guess the trap is thinking you can hang on to a good mood or banish a bad one. It's all about managing and for someone who does nearly everything by feel, this is a difficult concept.
Okay. So tempeh, people. Have you had it? Well, I never had that is, of course, until last night. Nicole had picked up this curry tempeh at the market and so I endeavored to try it in a stirfry. Long story short, it was an unmitigated disaster. I was literally crying as I ate it. Both Nicole and I did our best just to choke it down. I'm left wondering if it was something I did or if the curry flavor was what was making me gag. Calling all vegans and vegetarians--did I do something wrong? Or is there a better way to prepare it? I still have a whole block and a half. The half is curry the other is original flavor which I though I'd marinate in something strong like soy sauce and sesame oil.
And I saw my doctor today. Work was busy and I had to bust out "early" or rather before all the tables were fed to make this appointment. It was for my normal stuff but I have this thing wrong with my foot--a cyst or foreign body underneath the skin--it's this big welt in that soft spot in the middle of my right foot. I noticed it a few weeks ago and Nicole said I should bring it up so, you know, as someone who is so not used to having a family doctor to take care of my needs, I did as I was told. The result? I have to have an ultrasound on my foot. Exciting stuff.
Work has been mildly annoying lately. We had a big staff meeting where all this crap was supposed to be taken care of but instead things seem to have gotten worse. Plus, I have a high school kid as my only other support staff for my section and let me just tell you... the things he gets, he does quite well, the things he doesn't? UGH. Plus everyone works my section so you never know who to bitchslap. And then I quit pot (again) and let's just say, I got a little irritable with my boss when he came to tell me I had done something stupid when really it was someone else and I just wasn't having it so I was like "IT WASNT ME" and he sort of blinked and took a step back and that's when I knew I'd committed a fault. D'oh! But it's true, he should know I'd never do something like what he was telling me I had done.
And I worked a night shift last Saturday. As luck would have it Vanessa came in from out of town to visit and I ended up staying until 1130 talking to her at the bar. Good to catch up. It was also nice to be told by servers that my food is the prettiest. One server came up to me and told me how perfect all my plates are and it's not that everyone else sucks, it's just mine are so perfect. XD That was a really nice ego boost. Also nice was finding out that the other owner thinks so highly of me that he talks about me when I'm not there! Like the good talk, though: "Heather would never do that. Heather didn't prep that. You ran out of amuse? Heather would never let that happen." Hahahaha. Fuckin' cool. This comes on the heels of finding out that that same owner hates like THE nicest person in our kitchen. Glad I'm on his good side!
Oh, and G4 is playing Freaks & Geeks all week instead of X-Play. I watched the pilot the other night and the second episode last night. Insert happy sigh. Great show. And it's full of some of the top young stars in movies and television today but before they were anyones. It's pretty amazing that James Franco, Linda Cardellini, Seth Rogen, etc were in the same show before anyone knew who they were. Good casting agent in there, yo.
Until we meet again...