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I realized that I never update anymore. I used to update every day with every detail of my life, but I never have the time or desire to anymore. What I really want to do is go to the beach. That would be amazing. Or go shopping at AE. I want shorts and t-shirts, no more bank/state house clothes. Or do something else that I wont say because I have to forget about it. I want a pina colada. Damnit.
Tonight I am going out with Tash and Ruth, this girl from my church who is visiting from school in Georgia. Her parents are missionaries in the Philippeans, and she just came to the US this year. Her godmother, who she is staying with, goes to my church and asked me to take her somewhere cause she was really bored sitting at home. Meh. Shes really nice. However, I have so much to get done. All I have done all week is watch Alec. We got him his first pool yesterday. He loves me more than anyone besides his mama. Which everyone knows. My uncle is actually getting mad about it cause Alec wont ge to him when I'm there. Yey for alec...hes the sweetest thing ever and I love him to death. His words include: "mama, dada, nana, hea-dah, baby, julia, ball, pretty, deedle deedle deedle, and bad" haa and racial slurs that I wont mention. But since none of us are racist, I'm guessing hes just saying a mix of letters that sound entirely like something else. Or he is the next hitler. You choose.
I'm not sure what plans I've made on Friday. This guy Vandim, tash's bf's cousin, asked me to go out somewhere with him. I said yes..but I'm hoping I wasnt supposed to be doing something with someone else. Oops if I was. Sorry. I'm actually really glad that he wants to go out. I'm glad to be around different guys. I still miss tom, still love him, whats new, and I cant wait to find someone who will love his memory away-cause I dont want his memory. I dont know what my basic problem is..he was never even that nice to me. I clearly remember paying for dinner. More than once. And I also clearly remember being told to hush every five seconds cause he wasnt all for joking, at all, in public. In Borders he was so fjgnfdjhndmn gfhnjetbaw once that I actually pulled out a Playgirl and started reading it to prove to him that having a fucking stick up your ass isnt so important, and noone cares if you are yourself in public. I also remember not being able to kiss in public. And I remember getting ditched more than once. Ok, now, ith my hot headed, bitchy personality, I should have told him to kiss off a while ago. But somehow, I kept calling back, and somehow, we kept getting back together, and somehow, he loved me. Loves me. Just like somehow, this needs to go away. Completely. Forever. "I wouldnt not answer my phone cause it was you. I just dont answer it when I dont feel like talking to you." haha, ok buddy. Why I would love you is so completely beyond me. Everyone was right all along.
Saturday, Toni and I are going wedding dress shopping. :) :) :) yey, shes finally getting married!!! I cant wait to see alec in his little suit. <33
alright time to suffer in computer class. Sayonara.
Tonight I am going out with Tash and Ruth, this girl from my church who is visiting from school in Georgia. Her parents are missionaries in the Philippeans, and she just came to the US this year. Her godmother, who she is staying with, goes to my church and asked me to take her somewhere cause she was really bored sitting at home. Meh. Shes really nice. However, I have so much to get done. All I have done all week is watch Alec. We got him his first pool yesterday. He loves me more than anyone besides his mama. Which everyone knows. My uncle is actually getting mad about it cause Alec wont ge to him when I'm there. Yey for alec...hes the sweetest thing ever and I love him to death. His words include: "mama, dada, nana, hea-dah, baby, julia, ball, pretty, deedle deedle deedle, and bad" haa and racial slurs that I wont mention. But since none of us are racist, I'm guessing hes just saying a mix of letters that sound entirely like something else. Or he is the next hitler. You choose.
I'm not sure what plans I've made on Friday. This guy Vandim, tash's bf's cousin, asked me to go out somewhere with him. I said yes..but I'm hoping I wasnt supposed to be doing something with someone else. Oops if I was. Sorry. I'm actually really glad that he wants to go out. I'm glad to be around different guys. I still miss tom, still love him, whats new, and I cant wait to find someone who will love his memory away-cause I dont want his memory. I dont know what my basic problem is..he was never even that nice to me. I clearly remember paying for dinner. More than once. And I also clearly remember being told to hush every five seconds cause he wasnt all for joking, at all, in public. In Borders he was so fjgnfdjhndmn gfhnjetbaw once that I actually pulled out a Playgirl and started reading it to prove to him that having a fucking stick up your ass isnt so important, and noone cares if you are yourself in public. I also remember not being able to kiss in public. And I remember getting ditched more than once. Ok, now, ith my hot headed, bitchy personality, I should have told him to kiss off a while ago. But somehow, I kept calling back, and somehow, we kept getting back together, and somehow, he loved me. Loves me. Just like somehow, this needs to go away. Completely. Forever. "I wouldnt not answer my phone cause it was you. I just dont answer it when I dont feel like talking to you." haha, ok buddy. Why I would love you is so completely beyond me. Everyone was right all along.
Saturday, Toni and I are going wedding dress shopping. :) :) :) yey, shes finally getting married!!! I cant wait to see alec in his little suit. <33
alright time to suffer in computer class. Sayonara.