A better way to drown your sorrows
Today has been a day of thought for me, and NOT good ones. I've been crying for the last 10 minutes, and for what? The only thing I need is a good bottle of tequilla or vodka. I live my life to make others happy. Forget my own happiness. I was ALL set to go to California,and I was REALLY excited. But then, my mother and my fiance masterminded this brilliant plan to get me to stay. My mom told me that he loves me "so much" and that I should wait for him here. Maybe he does love me, I don't know. But then he had the nerve to tell me, "if you love me,you'll stay at your mom's house." WHATEVER. THAT was not the right thing to say. So, anyways, I put my life in hold. School's on hold, once again. At the rate I'm going,I'll be 80 by the time I get my Bachelor's degree. I'm such a huge disappointment to my family. Then, there's Aaron. I don't know what to say to him. I can't show him my heart and say, "here's thefeelings I have for you, i'm justgoing to throw them away becauseyou have a girlfriend now." We used to talk so much,now I'm lucky if it's once every two weeks. So, basically, once again, I'm alone. No one to talk to. He's too busy for me, my parents don't want anything to do with me. Can't say I blame them. Good night. Until my heart deja veuz's again with my mind and thoughts.