Thoughts
I'm sure no one reads this anymore, but I really just needed a space to spew my thoughts and this came back into mind... seems like as good a place as any...
I have no idea what my life is going to be come October 1. I'll have no place to live and no job. Which leaves the really scary realization that my life is completely open.
I love New York City. I am definitely not done living here.
The most important thing when choosing a place to live should be your friends. That's what makes me happy. I don't think I'm completely happy here.
I love my friends.
I've always pictured myself and planned to live in California, especially San Francisco.
I hate moving. It makes me feel like a nomad without a home. One of my dreams is just living in a place for 2 consecutive years.
Everything happens for a reason. So there was a reason that brought me here to New York. I love it. Was that it or am I meant to stay? That also means there's a reason I'm not going back to work for the school next year. Is the reason for that so that I'm free to move with my friends to California? I have to admit, that does really work out with the timing, especially since Corinne's commitments in Door County are ending in October too. I just have no idea.
I feel like I have no real friends here in New York. I have no idea who I'd end up living with if I stayed, probably some girls off Craigslist.
I hate moving. Moving cross country would probably be a huge pain. I'm not even completely sure how I would go about that.
I think being with my friends again would make me happy. After that, it wouldn't really matter what else happened.
It's more important to me who I live with than what job I do. But I also am a location snob. But then again, haven't I always said how much I planned to live in California? Wasn't San Francisco my first choice just a year ago? I will never regret being placed in New York. I really do love this city. Would I really be ready to leave it? Can I come back? Would that just be an even bigger pain? Imagine literally moving across the country and back again. New York City does have some great medical schools... maybe that would even be my first choice of city to go to medical school in. Some of that is because I've heard how hard/impossible getting into California medical schools is. But then again, maybe by the time I apply, I'd be a California resident... does that change things? Is this my only chance to live in New York? Is this my only chance to live in California? What am I going to do?
My friends are so important to me. If it wasn't for them, I wouldn't even be considering this. Hard to believe I only lived with this girl less than half a year before she became one of my closest friends.
***It's amazing that this post is written over a year since I last wrote in here, and yet without having read my previous post beforehand, I really just wrote exactly the same thing.
I have no idea what my life is going to be come October 1. I'll have no place to live and no job. Which leaves the really scary realization that my life is completely open.
I love New York City. I am definitely not done living here.
The most important thing when choosing a place to live should be your friends. That's what makes me happy. I don't think I'm completely happy here.
I love my friends.
I've always pictured myself and planned to live in California, especially San Francisco.
I hate moving. It makes me feel like a nomad without a home. One of my dreams is just living in a place for 2 consecutive years.
Everything happens for a reason. So there was a reason that brought me here to New York. I love it. Was that it or am I meant to stay? That also means there's a reason I'm not going back to work for the school next year. Is the reason for that so that I'm free to move with my friends to California? I have to admit, that does really work out with the timing, especially since Corinne's commitments in Door County are ending in October too. I just have no idea.
I feel like I have no real friends here in New York. I have no idea who I'd end up living with if I stayed, probably some girls off Craigslist.
I hate moving. Moving cross country would probably be a huge pain. I'm not even completely sure how I would go about that.
I think being with my friends again would make me happy. After that, it wouldn't really matter what else happened.
It's more important to me who I live with than what job I do. But I also am a location snob. But then again, haven't I always said how much I planned to live in California? Wasn't San Francisco my first choice just a year ago? I will never regret being placed in New York. I really do love this city. Would I really be ready to leave it? Can I come back? Would that just be an even bigger pain? Imagine literally moving across the country and back again. New York City does have some great medical schools... maybe that would even be my first choice of city to go to medical school in. Some of that is because I've heard how hard/impossible getting into California medical schools is. But then again, maybe by the time I apply, I'd be a California resident... does that change things? Is this my only chance to live in New York? Is this my only chance to live in California? What am I going to do?
My friends are so important to me. If it wasn't for them, I wouldn't even be considering this. Hard to believe I only lived with this girl less than half a year before she became one of my closest friends.
***It's amazing that this post is written over a year since I last wrote in here, and yet without having read my previous post beforehand, I really just wrote exactly the same thing.