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i realized something last night as i sat and read all the i hate you text messages from aaron and it was this: i have to real friends in any of them.
not one.
and the realization of that was very humble-ing. very sad almost.
and at the same time, very funny.
because he told me that "everyone" can see that i like drama.
there stopped being an "everyone" to me a long time ago.
but he's absolutely correct, because if i didn't "love" drama, i would have walked away from him a long fucking time ago.
but i waited too long.
and now i'm getting kicked in the ass again.
this time though, at least it's only figuratively. (sp?)
i am not sure if i have ever been so angry.
leavemealonepleasekthanks.
ps- i used to get pissed that people always took his side. now i think it would be nice to have that.
not one.
and the realization of that was very humble-ing. very sad almost.
and at the same time, very funny.
because he told me that "everyone" can see that i like drama.
there stopped being an "everyone" to me a long time ago.
but he's absolutely correct, because if i didn't "love" drama, i would have walked away from him a long fucking time ago.
but i waited too long.
and now i'm getting kicked in the ass again.
this time though, at least it's only figuratively. (sp?)
i am not sure if i have ever been so angry.
leavemealonepleasekthanks.
ps- i used to get pissed that people always took his side. now i think it would be nice to have that.