This could be it...
So my trip to New York is pretty much a set deal. I just need to buy my tickets, get a hold of some people there, and finalize my decision. Hmm.. I guess it's not as set as I thought. I really want to go, but I'm afraid of what might happen when I get there. I'll be staying with Dylan and Jay while I'm there... that's pretty weird. Two of my ex-boyfriends? They don't get along too well either. Eh, no reason to bring the two together at any point. I want to do the things I didn't get to the last time I was there. I never got the chance to wander the city alone. I'm gonna try to hit up some decent shows too, if my funds allow. I still wish someone would come with me in a way. I feel like I'm about to do something really stupid that's going to get me killed. However, I need the alone time. I need the "Ghost Travelling" as Jay calls it. I gotta learn to suck it up and do things by my own goddamn self. I guess I'm just paranoid. It'll be fine. I just hope it doesn't turn out to be a waste of my money. But, I haven't seen Dylan in a while, so that'll be cool.
So I applied to UCA... I'm debating between a sociology or a linguistics degree. I'm not sure yet. I got an offer to move to TX tonight. I don't know how serious it was, but damn... that would be cool... not TX really, but getting out of the state of AR would be great. The more and more I think about this place, the less and less I like it. Yeah I know, everyone says that. And I hope I don't become one of those people who does nothing about their living situation. I need someone to say "hey, let's move ____" I can't make that decision on my own it seems. I can't just pick up and leave. But I need to... badly. I can't stand it here anymore. There's about 10 people in this goddamn town that I give a shit about.... Half of them are gone or are planning on leaving. Maybe I'll get to NY and realize that I could just pick-up and leave. It just seems like its ions away until that happens! Man... I'm getting all heated up from this... I just put myself in a fucking bad mood. Goddamnit.
So I applied to UCA... I'm debating between a sociology or a linguistics degree. I'm not sure yet. I got an offer to move to TX tonight. I don't know how serious it was, but damn... that would be cool... not TX really, but getting out of the state of AR would be great. The more and more I think about this place, the less and less I like it. Yeah I know, everyone says that. And I hope I don't become one of those people who does nothing about their living situation. I need someone to say "hey, let's move ____" I can't make that decision on my own it seems. I can't just pick up and leave. But I need to... badly. I can't stand it here anymore. There's about 10 people in this goddamn town that I give a shit about.... Half of them are gone or are planning on leaving. Maybe I'll get to NY and realize that I could just pick-up and leave. It just seems like its ions away until that happens! Man... I'm getting all heated up from this... I just put myself in a fucking bad mood. Goddamnit.