Not too sure what I'm about to say

[heatherhostage]

Hmmm... SO the past few days have been real weird. I guess it started on Tuesday night. I found out this guy had the hots for me. And at the time I thought I liked him too. I even made him a bad-ass mix tape and was really excited to give it to him. He ended up picking me up before my show and taking me there. We hung out for a while, but I just started losing interest really quickly. It was weird. He wasn't doing anything wrong, I just didn't want to be anywhere near him. Then I started drinking. Stupid, stupid, stupid me. By the end of the night I was my usual drunk self and LOVED everyone. In fact I made a lot of new friends... that was probably the only postive thing of the night. Then after the show, Leeza, Ross, Matt, and I went to Knoop Park for TJ's Illegal dance party. It was really dark and I couldn't see anyone, but it was really fun anyway. Something really funny/bad happened. I was making out with *Someone Who Is Not Jay* and Damien comes up to us and says "Hey Heather, Hey Jay" hahaha... I felt really bad for "SOWINJ*. I yelled at Damien for a little bit, but then felt a little flattered that he thought it was Jay. Hmm... now that I think of it, why the hell was Damien trying to talk to us in the first place?? Silly Damien. If I were to marry anyone, it'd be him. I'm going to have a teenage girl moment and say that I have a big-ass crush on Damien. He knows it too I'm pretty sure. We share nice moments together though. And I love him for that. God, I could go on & on about him. In fact, Maybe I'll make a whole entry about him some time. But enough about Damien for now. So Leeza & Matt came up to me around 1:30 or so and told me that they were gonna go do some stuff at home and that Ross and I were welcome to join them. So we did. And that's where I end that part of the night. I will say that I drank a whole, whole lot and I don't remember a lot of it anyway. SO I wake up in Conway the next day. Apparently I fell asleep in the car and Ross didn't know how to get to my house. And apparently I told him that I didn't mind staying at his place. Which I believe, because I usually don't like staying at my parents house when I'm trashed. It was kind of awkward being there. I was extremely hung over and Ross (who had not drank very much) was informing me of the events the night before. Leeza has a big mouth... Matt has a big mouth... I'm pretty much fucked if I don't want anyone to find out what I did (or did not do). We talked about stuff and I let him know (casually) that I'm not so interested in have a boyfriend (at least not him...). I hope he got the point. However, today he called with a very lame excuse for a phonecall. Oh well... I knew this would happen. I don't know why I started it in the first place.

On a lighter note... tomorrow is Search for A House Day. Soon after: Adopt A Dog Day (for my roomate). And then perhaps: Get A Snake Day (for me)