maybe I won't be changing jobs...?
I heard back from one of the companies I interviewed with last week. They turned me down, even though they were "impressed by my background and personality." I have to wonder what was the problem. I didn't want that job anyway because I didn't like the atmosphere at that company, but it was kind of a shock because I was so confident.
If I had to guess what went wrong, I would say it's probably that I talked about being shy too much. The survey they gave me was mostly questions about personality and interpersonal relations, and I was maybe too honest. In my mind my shyness is probably more of a problem than it actually is, but the interviewers only can go off of what I tell them. I have to remind myself that they are asking me questions to evaluate me, not because they want to hear about me. I guess I'm so starved for conversation partners that I forgot what I was there to do and talked too much. :\
So now I'm worried about the other company I interviewed at, the one I really liked. I didn't say anything about being shy until the second interview so that's ok, and they seemed like "what, you're shy?" But I have a bigger problem. They asked if I was interviewing with other companies and I said yes and I told them to wait 2 weeks until I was done with all my interviews. I should have told them I wanted the job. >_<; Last night I sent a post-interview thank you letter to the guy who interviewed me, but I hope I didn't screw myself over by telling them I had another interview in 2 weeks and making it seem like I wasn't commited to getting this job.
I'm too honest sometimes. I guess it's because I have such a strong need to be validated and listened to because I don't have that in my life, have never had that in my life. So it's hard for me to form proper boundaries and hold back when it's appropriate to hold back. My psychological problems are hurting not just my personal life but my professional life as well.... :/
It's funny, two weeks ago I was so reluctant to change jobs but now I'm scared of the prospect of not being able to change jobs! I don't want to work weekends and travel all over Kanto every week doing the work of two people anymore. I think I'm going to call in sick on Sunday so I can go to Starfire, eek. >_<;;
If I had to guess what went wrong, I would say it's probably that I talked about being shy too much. The survey they gave me was mostly questions about personality and interpersonal relations, and I was maybe too honest. In my mind my shyness is probably more of a problem than it actually is, but the interviewers only can go off of what I tell them. I have to remind myself that they are asking me questions to evaluate me, not because they want to hear about me. I guess I'm so starved for conversation partners that I forgot what I was there to do and talked too much. :\
So now I'm worried about the other company I interviewed at, the one I really liked. I didn't say anything about being shy until the second interview so that's ok, and they seemed like "what, you're shy?" But I have a bigger problem. They asked if I was interviewing with other companies and I said yes and I told them to wait 2 weeks until I was done with all my interviews. I should have told them I wanted the job. >_<; Last night I sent a post-interview thank you letter to the guy who interviewed me, but I hope I didn't screw myself over by telling them I had another interview in 2 weeks and making it seem like I wasn't commited to getting this job.
I'm too honest sometimes. I guess it's because I have such a strong need to be validated and listened to because I don't have that in my life, have never had that in my life. So it's hard for me to form proper boundaries and hold back when it's appropriate to hold back. My psychological problems are hurting not just my personal life but my professional life as well.... :/
It's funny, two weeks ago I was so reluctant to change jobs but now I'm scared of the prospect of not being able to change jobs! I don't want to work weekends and travel all over Kanto every week doing the work of two people anymore. I think I'm going to call in sick on Sunday so I can go to Starfire, eek. >_<;;