restless...
I have been feeling so restless lately and I don't know why. I love being back at home and living with my mom and my kitty close to my childhood friends. Why, then, do I daydream about living alone in an apartment downtown in the city. I love my job and the great women I work with, so why do I often find myself thinking about what it would be live to move back to C-Ville where I could walk around UVa all the time, or about up and leaving the state altogether? Reality check: I go stir crazy when I'm alone for more than two weeks and where would the cat live? I love JQ, but for some reason we see each other less now that I'm working ten minutes from his house then we did when I was living two hours away. I miss when he'd give me cards and write me letters and poems and flowers, because now that we're comfortable with each other we don't even talk on the phone every day. I want to be emotionally closer, but I don't want to get engaged. What is my deal? I don't know. I just feel like right now I am waiting to be an adult rather than really being one.