Tell me, please tell me, something good is around the corner
My (x) boyfriend broke up with me due to his depression issues and I therefore quit my job cause I couldn't stand the memory of him. My sister quit her job, cause they are nazi's. And everyone is pretty well off in the deep end. So... am I insane for being hopeful? I have dreams about Victor fucking nightly. Well, maybe twice a week. Still, that's enough to drive a pin needle through my heart each time. I am strong, and being single I guess feels more like home. But those eight months with Victor, was a vacation I guess I wish I would never return from. I guess each day is a little better and I hope that's how it will work for my sister too. Could be worse... always could be worse. But it always could be better.
I finished my essay for USM, I've been working out again, and generally trying to better myself. That's all one can really do. My life is completely different now. I still have my friends, my family and my pets. They were and always will be the stable in my life that I can always count on.
SO then this drizzles down to my single life. It has already been really interesting. And men are still confusing even when your not with them. I will take it all with a grain of salt and pry for atleast some nookie. I don't know how much exactly, if even that would make me feel better at all. You know, I have never broken up with anyone in all my life. Why? WHYYYYY.... I don't understand what I've done wrong. Given the fact that I am only twenty two years old and finding your husband isn't too likely. I guess I will keep this in mind. If i was to stay with Victor, if he was to ask me to marry him that day; instead of break up with him; I would have said yes. My life isn't just going to be that, "Heather the Housewife." No, there is more for me in this life. My job now is to find it, and to nurture it. Nuture my own power and not my lover's. All I have is my own faith and no guy should steal that from me. Life really is about never giving up. To keep smiling and feeling that sun on your face. Spring is right around the corner and so is a happy ending.
I finished my essay for USM, I've been working out again, and generally trying to better myself. That's all one can really do. My life is completely different now. I still have my friends, my family and my pets. They were and always will be the stable in my life that I can always count on.
SO then this drizzles down to my single life. It has already been really interesting. And men are still confusing even when your not with them. I will take it all with a grain of salt and pry for atleast some nookie. I don't know how much exactly, if even that would make me feel better at all. You know, I have never broken up with anyone in all my life. Why? WHYYYYY.... I don't understand what I've done wrong. Given the fact that I am only twenty two years old and finding your husband isn't too likely. I guess I will keep this in mind. If i was to stay with Victor, if he was to ask me to marry him that day; instead of break up with him; I would have said yes. My life isn't just going to be that, "Heather the Housewife." No, there is more for me in this life. My job now is to find it, and to nurture it. Nuture my own power and not my lover's. All I have is my own faith and no guy should steal that from me. Life really is about never giving up. To keep smiling and feeling that sun on your face. Spring is right around the corner and so is a happy ending.