confused
why do i act different? i am cool until i am nervous or shit i dont know... i get weird around ppl that like me or ppl that i like and totally go to shutdown mode or just act fucking weird... wth? i dont get myself... i guess i try to hard to distance myself so im not labeled a slut or sumthing... or so i dont get hurt ... or too close to anything ... hell i dont know.. im fucking weird and it pisses me off that i cant be me all the time ... i have to go in this weird moood... kinda like when i dated jeremy d and then i distanced myself so much because i thought he was flirting with terra and i wuldnt ask him or talk to him cuz i was afraid of being labeled the jealous type orsumthing.. and right before mea nd matt broke up i was upset because i thought he liked sum1 else maybe taylor.. or lacey again .. but i wuldnt say anything.. why do i do these things? why cant i jsut ask and god... i dunno why im like this... im stupid