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I haven't updated in a while so here goes... I haven't really been trying to lose weight. I'm in a period where I've been eating somewhat normally and not even trying to purge after. Its kinda weird for me. I feel guilty but not that guilty which is the weirdest part. I go though days of absolutely hating myself so I know I have to get over this and back to my old eating habbits because I hate that feeling. I guess today is a new month so I should start something but I'm just so tired of worrying about food 24/7 that I really don't want to. Maybe I'll just go running today... that should help. I hate this inbetween feeling and the feeling of seeing the scale read a lower and lower number each day. I guess I'm still happy because I haven't gained weight.