?? so confused ??
wow oh wow i havent written in this thing in FOREVER!!!!
well im not gonna even attempt to update from the last entry bc i think it was all the way from before christmas so ill just touch up on the important stuff...
well this past week or so has been the most emotional (good and bad) of my life...ive never had so many feelings at one time in my life...some advice never say never and the only person you can truly count on is yourself...things are on there way back to normal...but its not gonna be an easy road...it hurts more than anything but my heart isnt made of glass so i know it cant stay broken forever...
i kno that last part prolly doesnt make sense to alot of people but it does to me so...oh well
well i kno this is horrible but tommarow javis family finally leaves from his house and hopefully things cant start getting back to normal again *crosses fingers*
uhmmm i went to an open house at UCF today and it just reconfirmed that i wanna go soooooooo bad more than anything!!!!! ive never wanted something so badly (well one thing but i got that for now) it was so awesome just to see college life and just being there for 6 hours i could see how different it was from high school...i truly can not wait to start that next chapter of my life!!! but first...i got to get accepted :-/
hmm well lets see school is pretty good i guess my classes are okay...nothing special...except in my env. science class theres this boy who reminds me so much of javi that it is SCARY and everytime i see him i seriously want to cry (sometimes i do). Everybody said that as time goes by that this whole long-distance thing would get easier...they lied to me! it does NOT get easier if anything every second it gets harder...but we're trying to plan something for february...well i am :/...so hopefully i wont have to wait until prom to see him...
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.....thats what i feel when i think about it...
so real wucik before i go i wanna try that thing margo showed jenn...
1. im sorry
2. i lied
3. its my fault
4. you make me sick
5. i dont know why
6. i need the answers even if they hurt
7. i know i shouldnt
8. you drive me crazy
9. you're the gayest person ive met and really u need help
10. you're the cause of all my pain
11. it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts
12. I LOVE YOU MORE THAN YOU CAN IMAGINE
like jenn said dont ask who they're about because... im not telling :-)
...muy love
...byes
well im not gonna even attempt to update from the last entry bc i think it was all the way from before christmas so ill just touch up on the important stuff...
well this past week or so has been the most emotional (good and bad) of my life...ive never had so many feelings at one time in my life...some advice never say never and the only person you can truly count on is yourself...things are on there way back to normal...but its not gonna be an easy road...it hurts more than anything but my heart isnt made of glass so i know it cant stay broken forever...
i kno that last part prolly doesnt make sense to alot of people but it does to me so...oh well
well i kno this is horrible but tommarow javis family finally leaves from his house and hopefully things cant start getting back to normal again *crosses fingers*
uhmmm i went to an open house at UCF today and it just reconfirmed that i wanna go soooooooo bad more than anything!!!!! ive never wanted something so badly (well one thing but i got that for now) it was so awesome just to see college life and just being there for 6 hours i could see how different it was from high school...i truly can not wait to start that next chapter of my life!!! but first...i got to get accepted :-/
hmm well lets see school is pretty good i guess my classes are okay...nothing special...except in my env. science class theres this boy who reminds me so much of javi that it is SCARY and everytime i see him i seriously want to cry (sometimes i do). Everybody said that as time goes by that this whole long-distance thing would get easier...they lied to me! it does NOT get easier if anything every second it gets harder...but we're trying to plan something for february...well i am :/...so hopefully i wont have to wait until prom to see him...
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.....thats what i feel when i think about it...
so real wucik before i go i wanna try that thing margo showed jenn...
1. im sorry
2. i lied
3. its my fault
4. you make me sick
5. i dont know why
6. i need the answers even if they hurt
7. i know i shouldnt
8. you drive me crazy
9. you're the gayest person ive met and really u need help
10. you're the cause of all my pain
11. it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts
12. I LOVE YOU MORE THAN YOU CAN IMAGINE
like jenn said dont ask who they're about because... im not telling :-)
...muy love
...byes