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It's difficult to post when there seems to always be someone around. Even more difficult to restrict with people around. Why is it that Americans have to be social eaters?! Why can't we be social exercisers?
So, since the last post, I've been doing all right.
Probably less than 800 cals for all of the days, but not NEAR where it should be. I feel disgusting.
I'm thinking a long run right now. A laxative tonight, if I have to. I really want to be careful with those.
The scale said 144 lbs this morning. 3 or 4 lbs since the 15th. 6 or 7 since the first week of January. I'll take it, I guess.
I always start off great, and then somewhere along the way I manage to convince myself that I'm fine, don't need to starve, blah blah blah. And then I hate myself for it. I suppose part of me just wants to be healthy. Healthy is bullshit if you are a fat ass, though. I'd rather be skinny and unhealthy.
So, since the last post, I've been doing all right.
Probably less than 800 cals for all of the days, but not NEAR where it should be. I feel disgusting.
I'm thinking a long run right now. A laxative tonight, if I have to. I really want to be careful with those.
The scale said 144 lbs this morning. 3 or 4 lbs since the 15th. 6 or 7 since the first week of January. I'll take it, I guess.
I always start off great, and then somewhere along the way I manage to convince myself that I'm fine, don't need to starve, blah blah blah. And then I hate myself for it. I suppose part of me just wants to be healthy. Healthy is bullshit if you are a fat ass, though. I'd rather be skinny and unhealthy.