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As I am about to graduate high school tomorrow, I find myself probably more lost than ever. Rachel, you claim you have the most growing up to do and that everyone is moving on, but truth be told- I think you're wrong. I have been handed every single thing in my life on a silver platter. I am so grateful for everything that I have, but I have no confidence in getting away from it. Almost all of my friends are leaving for college. I am so excited for them, and I hope that these places show them everything they want to see. But I am staying here, with my family, because I feel bad. I'm turning 19 soon. Shouldn't I be able to let go? I can't though. I have resigned myself to the fact that maybe staying home will allow me a better opportunity to do well in school. It could, but probably won't. I am about to lose a few people that are so important to me and I can't begin to describe how sad it makes me. I've already lost my brother and sister in law, which were two very meaningful people to me. I guess I'm just scared that I won't meet new people like I want to, and that I will always be stuck here, on Dike Road, with the people who give me everything I want and more. It's not all that it's cracked up to be.