you wouldn't want to hear it
So I've realized that the one thing im most afraid of is just you forgetting about me and we just stop talking and ever seeing each other ever again. I occupy myself and surround myself and use people just to fill that void you leave me everytime im not with you or i dont see you or we arnt talking for awhile and it hurts and i drink and i cry and i try everything just to make it alright and i thought maybe if we dont talk at all ever again ill get over it but it just makes it worse and i cant even stand the thought of you and i cant stop thinking about you random times during my days and its impossible for me to just let go of all of these feelings for you when its the one thing i want more than anything because we will never be like that again, and i am even sure we will never see each other again. I love you.