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[heartxxxbreaker]

its been over a month since i last posted.
its been a horrible one at that
the worst of my life
though xmas was ok
just before xmas we found out my grampy had cancer
then he died on the friday before new years
so new years was shit i stayed in
since then everything is going wrong
me and thom have been split up for more then a week i honestly thought wed get bk together bt we aint
i duno boys are so confusing its like we are together doing everything like before then he tells me we are just mates
i wanna break away bt i just cant
and weve booked incubus tickets and a holiday which we loose the money if we cancel
and debbie thomas would be dead if murder werent a crime i fucking hate her iv never ever ever hated any 1 like this in my whole life
it seems all my friends have fucked off n left me for different reasons and the ones that are left are coupled up and dont want to know
it dont like il be doing the uni course i want to now as i wnt be able to get the grades
im just fed up of life fed up of being un happy, being unloved and crying constalty yet pretending to every im ok
when really im far from ok