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ey i didnt think anybody was gonna be reading this wen i updated so thats kool...
i jus got outta work..it was an ok day
i went to a psychic the other day wit Cora*Lee and the shit that came outta that bitches mouth..she shoulda been slapped the fuck up right there.. ever jus hear things that yu reallllllly dont wanna hear? yeh thats all that came outta her mouth! i need a second opinion lol. it freaked me out tho cuz sum shit she sed..
by the way, Jeffs grandmother is a psyycho n yelled at me n Jakey the other day. n we got kicked out.. funny lol
i dunt even kno wut to really write.. oh yeh, i feel like i lost natalie to.. a GUY! yehhh y do girls alwys bail out of their friendships wen a guy comes along? fuckkk that i wont even talk to any guys that are "interested" in me.. i dnk its stupid. all i really care about is my friends.. which i have to be going to get ready to chill wit right about soon
n i was jus a lil hypocrite for a second cuz i jus ended a thing i had goin on wit Jay.. but i really felt suffocated.. besides that hes 24 wit a fuckin hot ass corvette n a fuckin HOUSE!..i tried to like him but i think i was more interested in wut he had, as fucked as that sounds but im not a bitch so i ended it.. hes fuckin crazy tho... hittin my phone up mad times.. stoppin by my work today! n to make it worse hes my boss*s brother.. its all fuckkked up
and sum kid Jeff was trin to talk to me too... which i kinda wanted cuz Natalie is wid his best friend James..but i dont like him n i dont wanna be forced to like sumone.. it seems like everyone has suttin wrong wid em or im being WAYYY picky.
but it all comes down to is that i dont want a boyfriend.. i wanna be alone doin my own things... goin sumwhere in life. i think i made it a long way.. especially the circumstances.. n nobody helped me but myself.. so instead of me thinking that i needed "something" to help me.. all i really needed was to wake up and stop being so blind. really, nobody can depend on sumthing or somebody but themselves.
its so weird lookin back n seein how ppl usta think about things. like i usta be so blinded by wut i was doin wit my life that i couldnt see i was actually fuckin ruining it... lol i sound lyk a fuckin teacher or sum shit but its truu
as for school, i dnk where ill be goin wit that.. i wanna make a difference ... i wanna help ppl that were like me.. but i dont think im ready for that yet, maybe in a couple years or so i will be more stable to deal with those situations.. maybe ill help teens who get into sum serious shit wit drugs n shit.. i jus really wanna help ppl which is weird cuz i usta HATE ppl... i still do lol but not lyk the kinda "im gonna stab u if u get 2 feet next ta me"
i jus wanna help ppl cuz i alwys wanted sumbody to try n help me.. sey the right things to me instead of the usual ' oh u need to stop ' shit.. y not actually take action n do sumthing to help!?
i dnk enuff ramblin on.. gotta go get rdy for the day
i jus got outta work..it was an ok day
i went to a psychic the other day wit Cora*Lee and the shit that came outta that bitches mouth..she shoulda been slapped the fuck up right there.. ever jus hear things that yu reallllllly dont wanna hear? yeh thats all that came outta her mouth! i need a second opinion lol. it freaked me out tho cuz sum shit she sed..
by the way, Jeffs grandmother is a psyycho n yelled at me n Jakey the other day. n we got kicked out.. funny lol
i dunt even kno wut to really write.. oh yeh, i feel like i lost natalie to.. a GUY! yehhh y do girls alwys bail out of their friendships wen a guy comes along? fuckkk that i wont even talk to any guys that are "interested" in me.. i dnk its stupid. all i really care about is my friends.. which i have to be going to get ready to chill wit right about soon
n i was jus a lil hypocrite for a second cuz i jus ended a thing i had goin on wit Jay.. but i really felt suffocated.. besides that hes 24 wit a fuckin hot ass corvette n a fuckin HOUSE!..i tried to like him but i think i was more interested in wut he had, as fucked as that sounds but im not a bitch so i ended it.. hes fuckin crazy tho... hittin my phone up mad times.. stoppin by my work today! n to make it worse hes my boss*s brother.. its all fuckkked up
and sum kid Jeff was trin to talk to me too... which i kinda wanted cuz Natalie is wid his best friend James..but i dont like him n i dont wanna be forced to like sumone.. it seems like everyone has suttin wrong wid em or im being WAYYY picky.
but it all comes down to is that i dont want a boyfriend.. i wanna be alone doin my own things... goin sumwhere in life. i think i made it a long way.. especially the circumstances.. n nobody helped me but myself.. so instead of me thinking that i needed "something" to help me.. all i really needed was to wake up and stop being so blind. really, nobody can depend on sumthing or somebody but themselves.
its so weird lookin back n seein how ppl usta think about things. like i usta be so blinded by wut i was doin wit my life that i couldnt see i was actually fuckin ruining it... lol i sound lyk a fuckin teacher or sum shit but its truu
as for school, i dnk where ill be goin wit that.. i wanna make a difference ... i wanna help ppl that were like me.. but i dont think im ready for that yet, maybe in a couple years or so i will be more stable to deal with those situations.. maybe ill help teens who get into sum serious shit wit drugs n shit.. i jus really wanna help ppl which is weird cuz i usta HATE ppl... i still do lol but not lyk the kinda "im gonna stab u if u get 2 feet next ta me"
i jus wanna help ppl cuz i alwys wanted sumbody to try n help me.. sey the right things to me instead of the usual ' oh u need to stop ' shit.. y not actually take action n do sumthing to help!?
i dnk enuff ramblin on.. gotta go get rdy for the day