wtf am i doing to myself?
i did a bad, bad thing today again. i'm not proud of it. im so depressed and lonely right now. i want to talk to somebody, but i don't want to wake anybody up. i feel like crying.. the feeling only lasts for awhile, but when it's gone.. boom you feel shitty all over again. i miss daniel. i want to talk to him.. i hate letting people who genuinely care about me down. i guess im just my worst enemy. and you know what's really sad? that im already planning on doing this again later tonight. i will probably get to see daniel then. i think i need to go out and get a breath of fresh air. as of now, i guess there's really nothing else to say. i will update later when i'm not feeling like an emotional wreck. i really dont feel so good now. im scared.