trippin
wow..where to begin. well...last night i went over to Courtney and jennies house and i got really really really stoned with Courtney and my cousin Heather at like 1:00 in the am. well that was not the best idea i suppose. because i ended up smoking too much or something. because i started trippin' out really bad. and i know it sounds funny cuz usually pot doesn't do that shit to you right? well it did it to me. One second i was laughing histarically on the couch with Courtney for some stupid ass reason. and then it's like i didnt think it happened at all. i had a pillow over my face. and when i took it away i didnt know what was happening to me. it was like i was watching a movie of my life. but i was talking out loud about things. but in my head i thought i was just talking out loud and no one was talking back to me. then i would lose my memory all of a sudden. like my eyes would roll back in my head and i lost everything. it was the scariest thing i have ever experianced in my entire life. i don't know how to explain what happened really...it was like an out of body experiance. but i was having seizures and convulsing, and shaking really bad. and i couldnt feel my body. i couldnt feel my face, i was totally numb. so i kept slapping myself in the face, but i felt nothing. i think the weed was laced with something. i dont know...but it totally fucked with my head. and i didnt like it at all. i dont think i'm gonna be smoking for awhile after that one.
the whole time i was just thinking "where's Joey?" because earlier that morning i had taken her to the airport so she could fly home. but when i was sitting there i totally forgot that i did that. and i asked my cousin where Joey was. and she told me she left. and i started crying more because i was so scared. and i just wanted her to be there with me. but she wasnt. it was just a shit experience. i know i sound like a pussy but i don't care. no more smoking for me. ah...i HAD to get that shit out. okay. now i have to go though.
the whole time i was just thinking "where's Joey?" because earlier that morning i had taken her to the airport so she could fly home. but when i was sitting there i totally forgot that i did that. and i asked my cousin where Joey was. and she told me she left. and i started crying more because i was so scared. and i just wanted her to be there with me. but she wasnt. it was just a shit experience. i know i sound like a pussy but i don't care. no more smoking for me. ah...i HAD to get that shit out. okay. now i have to go though.