sometimes it lasts in love, sometimes it hurts instead
I heard that you're settled down.
That you found a girl and you're married now.
I heard that your dreams came true.
Guess she gave you things that i didnt give to you.
Old friend, why are you so shy?
It aint like you to hold back or hide from the lie.
I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But i couldnt stay away i couldnt fight it
I'd hope you see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isnt over
Nevermind i'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Dont forget me i beg i remember you said:
Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead.
Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead.
Part of the lyrice from Adele - Someone like you. Go google the song. It nice. :) Rolling in the deep is nice too.
Arranged to go to tampines gym with small jas and bell yday to work out those fats. Walaueh. My thighs now aching. Haha. Really very long never workout le. And i realised slow and steady really does the trick. Though i ran slowly on the threadmill yday, but i didnt stop/ slow down the pace. Because the last time i went to Hougang gym, i went at such a fast speed and couldnt catch my breath and had to stop running before 20mins was up. Bell and i went on to do some of the equipment which supposedly tones our inner and outer thighs, our flabby arms, etc. Hahah but i really aching now!
And who else should i see but Johnathan from SHSS in the gym. His best friend in SHSS. Awkward moment but all was good. Talked abit but that about it. Was feeling restless after gym session yday. Couldnt sit still when i was home. Even when lying on the bed, i couldnt lie still! Dont know what was wrong with me. Bell asked is it cos i saw Johnathan. But nah, it wasnt. Johnathan is just a mutual friend and even if he were to text roystance that he saw me at the gym, there's nothing roystance can do. Or rather, roystance also wont do anything about it. All he can do is just listen and shrug it off. So im not wary of any sorts like that. I was really just feeling restless, god knows why though. Haha.
Gonna be busy for 3 weekends. One weekend just passed. This coming thurs-sun would be PC show. And for the first time, im not working for Epson. Jump ship to Eternal Asia. They sell many things but the product which bell, small jas, kiwi and i will be selling would be external hard disk. Basic pay of $70/day with no comm.
Maybe im getting old. Not interested in pushing sales anymore. Or maybe its because after having worked in the same company for so long but yet the comm is getting lesser and lesser despite pushing more sales is demoralising. But nevertheless, new environment - gonna start everything afresh. Learn new things sounds good too. :)
Was just talking to small jas and bell after gym yday while at lunch. Talked about relationships. And i realised even though i have already given up on roystance, put it behind me and have moved on - im not ready for another relationship. I just dont see myself committing 100% anymore. Maybe its the phobia, the fear. But looking at couples around me, looking at them quarrel and having misunderstandings occasionally - i dont wanna put myself through all these anymore. I know that no relationship is always 100% smooth-sailing. But... I guess relationships are currently the last thing on my mind. I dont wish to misinterpret any signs as love only to find out at the end of the day that it isnt any sort like that.
Loving the 'me-time' for myself, loving how i can go anywhere without having to bother about how anyone feels, loving how i can just say OKAY! to any work schedules without having to consider whether i have time to spend with my other half. Enough of sparing a thought for 'my other half'. Its time to spare some thought for myself. I dont wish to worry whether my other half is cheating on me, whether my other half is lying to me, having to decipher his thoughts, having to guess what are his intentions, etc.
Tired of all these. Really miss secondary school days. Carefree, fun albeit the stress over homework. But i really miss them. Miss my classmates, miss my teachers, miss school. Everything has changed. Not a single thing stayed the same. Building structured changed, teachers left the school, classmates all busy with their lives - everyone is moving along with time.
Time waits for no man...