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I've come to the realization that college is a lot like kindergarten.
you're in a whole new place, you see and experience new things, you're no longer in your comfort zone, you become more detached from your parents, and of course the ultimate question arises...
"will I make friends?"
seriously, that question has been in my mind this whole month. it's all I'm worried about. I'm such a guarded person but I really don't mean to be. and I have gotten all the same responses about my woes from other people; "everyone is feeling the same way!"
it didn't feel like that to me when I was orientation. sure, I made buddies to be with, but I didn't make "friends." I heard people laughing and talking until the morning. I want that.
I have almost a full week from the time I move in until the time classes start. they have all these things planned but the things planned are around the same things during orientation that they forced us to do; and I hated it!
now I have a choice of whether or not I want to participate. I really don't want to isolate myself but these "events" are not my way of making friends. they have friggen dances planned, I feel like I'm back in high school.
I can't believe how hard it is for me to experience new things. I wish I could remember how I was on the first day of kindergarten.
you're in a whole new place, you see and experience new things, you're no longer in your comfort zone, you become more detached from your parents, and of course the ultimate question arises...
"will I make friends?"
seriously, that question has been in my mind this whole month. it's all I'm worried about. I'm such a guarded person but I really don't mean to be. and I have gotten all the same responses about my woes from other people; "everyone is feeling the same way!"
it didn't feel like that to me when I was orientation. sure, I made buddies to be with, but I didn't make "friends." I heard people laughing and talking until the morning. I want that.
I have almost a full week from the time I move in until the time classes start. they have all these things planned but the things planned are around the same things during orientation that they forced us to do; and I hated it!
now I have a choice of whether or not I want to participate. I really don't want to isolate myself but these "events" are not my way of making friends. they have friggen dances planned, I feel like I'm back in high school.
I can't believe how hard it is for me to experience new things. I wish I could remember how I was on the first day of kindergarten.