breakinwavesnsaturdays
last night i was suppose to go out with jaime. i went home took a shower and got ready. just when i was about to leave my house, i stopped. i couldn't walk through the doors. i fear seeing him, i don't know if i am strong enough to handle it. how can you just be someone's friend? after sharing so much? how can i just stop loving him, how can i just look at him and not cry, pretend that i don't care. i try to make myself hate him, it doesn't work. i miss our conversations. i am going fucking crazy.