Dear everybody or whoever's listening:
fuck love. fuck love. fuck love. fuck love.
betrayl.
dishonesty.
distrust.
this is all you meant you me.
fucking die, fucking rott,
you hurt me for the last time.
FUCK YOU.
The sun is bleeding through the blinds
we murdered yet another night
I close my eyes and swallow pain
my body aches like Saturday
I'm one to watch and you're one to say
"I never really cared"
My eyes are sensitive to sight
and my skin burns under the light
I shut my eyes and sound the end
of what I thought was my best bet
and all that's left is left unsaid
but I never really cared
I'll count headlights on the way back home
each one holds a wish and a secret toll
of all the girls who twist my thoughts in ways
that make me smile and sufficate
tell me you don't miss these brown eyes
and that you're not in love
I hate hate the way you look at me
where's the pills for that thing that you call
"sweepin' me off my feet"
it's boys like you that keep open graves
for girls like me
that keep themselves locked up for days
Take this stupid heart
I know it's all you ever want me for
and I hope you keep it close
so everyone knows that it's all because of you
that I'm dead to the world
I won't wait, I won't wait, I won't wait
I won't wait for you to make me stop
I couldn't call you if I wanted
my fingers couldn't work if they tried
they're so sore from keeping crossed
and tracing over cuts on my worthless arms
if I said "I hated the feeling" it would be a lie
Will you swear you won't be sleepin'
cause I can't begin to dream to shut my eyes
and I'm biting bullets and watching phones
for no apparent reason
and I don't think that I'll make it out alive
Did you know you were the boy
that made love a four letter word
I just can't wait to make you hate me a little more
you made my head a mess
with the life of doctors notes
and ink blot tests
and enough empty bottles to bury me alive
When a smile is a close call
and my words caught in my throat
I'm an inch away from dying
and I'm lucky if I choke
When a smile is a close call(I wear my heart)
and my words caught in my throat (on my sleeve)
I'm an inch away from dying (and you'll still)
and I'm lucky if I choke (walk right by me)
betrayl.
dishonesty.
distrust.
this is all you meant you me.
fucking die, fucking rott,
you hurt me for the last time.
FUCK YOU.
The sun is bleeding through the blinds
we murdered yet another night
I close my eyes and swallow pain
my body aches like Saturday
I'm one to watch and you're one to say
"I never really cared"
My eyes are sensitive to sight
and my skin burns under the light
I shut my eyes and sound the end
of what I thought was my best bet
and all that's left is left unsaid
but I never really cared
I'll count headlights on the way back home
each one holds a wish and a secret toll
of all the girls who twist my thoughts in ways
that make me smile and sufficate
tell me you don't miss these brown eyes
and that you're not in love
I hate hate the way you look at me
where's the pills for that thing that you call
"sweepin' me off my feet"
it's boys like you that keep open graves
for girls like me
that keep themselves locked up for days
Take this stupid heart
I know it's all you ever want me for
and I hope you keep it close
so everyone knows that it's all because of you
that I'm dead to the world
I won't wait, I won't wait, I won't wait
I won't wait for you to make me stop
I couldn't call you if I wanted
my fingers couldn't work if they tried
they're so sore from keeping crossed
and tracing over cuts on my worthless arms
if I said "I hated the feeling" it would be a lie
Will you swear you won't be sleepin'
cause I can't begin to dream to shut my eyes
and I'm biting bullets and watching phones
for no apparent reason
and I don't think that I'll make it out alive
Did you know you were the boy
that made love a four letter word
I just can't wait to make you hate me a little more
you made my head a mess
with the life of doctors notes
and ink blot tests
and enough empty bottles to bury me alive
When a smile is a close call
and my words caught in my throat
I'm an inch away from dying
and I'm lucky if I choke
When a smile is a close call(I wear my heart)
and my words caught in my throat (on my sleeve)
I'm an inch away from dying (and you'll still)
and I'm lucky if I choke (walk right by me)