I don't think that I've got the stomach to stomach calling you today.....
if this is too emotional for u : dont read . i dont care !
im very angry at the world . I work like a mexican and I never have time to update this damn thing , so when I do , rest assured , it is 100 % venting . I'm angry that I work like 8-2 and then like 4 until 10ish on the weekends and I have no time with my friends . when I do go out , I'm in work clothes , I'm mad at the fact that some people get handed everything and they dont appreciate it and I pay for EVERYTHING and I work like a dog and I still dont have money for things . I want like a boy in my life . someone who is always calling me and texting me , just for support haha . but truthfully , i dont have time for anyone , i work so much and in january im starting school . so ill always be studying and working and sleeping . i just hate fake boys . like really . guys that u think are cool and when you see them u get so happy , because u think " this one is different " but they arent . they are all scumbags and they never care about my feelings. guys always talk about sluts and whores that dick them over and cheat on them and treat them like shit . i've never dicked a guy over . ok maybe once . but that was different . im just so sick and tired of being hurt , its really depressing . i wish i could be happy .
i should just be lame and pass out watching the wedding singer .
i've given up on my strict tastes... its shocking i know . i used to only like boys with lip rings and shaggy hair and i mean i still notice that in a crowd but i've totally come down from that . im not as picky as i used to be . i just want a boy . maybe @ occ , ill meet someone good <3
ok im done for real <3