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Sometimes I feel as though I have come a long way. I don't hurt like I used to, I am not as vulnerable as I once was. Then there is one night where everything crumbles and I feel like I am back on square one. I can't stand depression and I can't stand feeling like I am out of control when it comes to my emotions. Last night I sat in my shower and needed the hot water to feel as though it was burning with me. When I can't control my emotions and how I feel, sometimes being able to feel physical pain makes it seem better. If I can focus on the pain in my body then I won't be focusing on whatever is consuming my mind.
Last night is over, though, and I am praying that I don't have another night like that for a long, long while.
Last night is over, though, and I am praying that I don't have another night like that for a long, long while.