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I'm torn between wanting to rewind my life and relive my childhood, or fast forward to when I'm a successful surgeon (I hope). As much as I love the whole learning process, I'm not sure how much longer I can function living my life the way I am. I have to work so much to be able to pay my bills, and I have to study constantly to keep my gpa, which leaves little time to stop and enjoy my life. I rarely sleep for more than 2 or 3 hours at a time, I haven't had the time to go running in nearly a week, I haven't read a book for fun since Spring Break, I haven't seen one of my best friends since before Christmas (and she's in Corvallis). In high school, people always told me to enjoy my time because they were going to be the best years of my life. Now I'm in college, and people say these are the best years of my life. While it is certainly invigorating living on my own and taking care of myself with no help from anyone, I truly hope these are not the best years of my life. I want my life to be something I experience. I want to wake up in the morning and not know everything I'm going to do throughout the day. I want to be able to be spontaneous. If these are the best years of my life and everything just goes downhill after graduation, then I'm not sure why I'm spending so much time and money to be even more miserable.
Tuition is increasing this fall. I'm not sure how much longer I can live like this.
Tuition is increasing this fall. I'm not sure how much longer I can live like this.