The broken heart
“It’s time for you to move on now” his friend Minho told him one day, eyebrows furrowed as he stood watching Onew read a valentines card from Kibum from last Valentines day.
Onew stood in the doorway, hands rapidly fiddling with his keys. When the door finally opened, he tumbled in and fell to the floor, tears flowing.
It hurt. God it hurt.
He clung to his chest and letting out a loud cry, he hit the ground, the wall, anything within inches of him. He was angry. Why would Kibum want to end such a good thing?
“I’m just not ready for a relationship” Kibum had told him earlier, eyes fixed on the table below him. Onew nodded and accepted that the only thing he could do would be to stand up and walk away slowly. He could cry but he didn’t want to seem weak. He gave Kibum one last look as he let his feet lead him away from the only thing keeping him alive.
Vowing to stay friends with one another, he continued to text Kibum daily. Conversations were light and friendly but that was enough to keep Onew grounded. He still cried himself to sleep though; memories of Kibum would come flooding back whenever he thought of him which was always. Friends took care of Onew whenever they could. He wouldn’t eat, every time he tried, thoughts of Kibum would be enough to make him push his bowl away with force.
“It’s time for you to move on now” his friend Minho told him one day, eyebrows furrowed as he stood watching Onew read a valentines card from Kibum from last Valentines day.
“I cant” was Onew’s response.
Weeks went by and months passed. They began to chat more often and occasionally flirt with one another. Kibum invited him over to watch a movie one night and Onew couldn’t believe his luck. As they watched the movie, Kibum slung an arm around Onew and they began to kiss intensely, Onew ended up staying the night. This became a frequent thing, with Onew beginning to stay with Kibum every other night.
Then one evening, he received a text from Kibum; “I’m sorry Onew. I don’t want what you want”
It broke Onew's already vulnerable heart even more than he thought possible. The pain came flooding back and he found himself clinging to bed sheets, crying hard. His head hurt, his eyes ached and the pain in his chest was indescribable. Why would Kibum lead him on like this?
It got to the point where Onew could no longer live on his own thoughts, he was given anti-depressants and his friends were warned to watch him. Kibum began to avoid replying to him and it only spiralled Onew into further depression.
Onew had never experienced heartbreak before this and he now knows how much it hurts. Although he will always have a place in his heart for Kibum , he doesn’t know what the future holds for them both as a couple. He still thinks Kibum is the one and deep in his heart, he may move on but he will always have hope that one day, Kibum will return and this time they can make things work.
Does anyone remember me? Haha I've not written since August 2010! A lot has happened since I last wrote something on here. One of the biggest things to happen was when I got my first real boyfriend in November last year and I'm still heartbroken over him so this story is almost like my diary. Everything written here is exactly what happened in real life and yes, I do miss my ex, more than words can describe. I hope one day I will be happy again because trust me dolls, heartbreak is the worst feeling ever. For those who have experienced it first hand, you will know what I mean and for those who haven't experienced it, I pray that you will never have to go through it. Anyway, I really hope you enjoy! my writing is a little rusty seeing as it's been so long! ♥
Onew stood in the doorway, hands rapidly fiddling with his keys. When the door finally opened, he tumbled in and fell to the floor, tears flowing.
It hurt. God it hurt.
He clung to his chest and letting out a loud cry, he hit the ground, the wall, anything within inches of him. He was angry. Why would Kibum want to end such a good thing?
“I’m just not ready for a relationship” Kibum had told him earlier, eyes fixed on the table below him. Onew nodded and accepted that the only thing he could do would be to stand up and walk away slowly. He could cry but he didn’t want to seem weak. He gave Kibum one last look as he let his feet lead him away from the only thing keeping him alive.
Vowing to stay friends with one another, he continued to text Kibum daily. Conversations were light and friendly but that was enough to keep Onew grounded. He still cried himself to sleep though; memories of Kibum would come flooding back whenever he thought of him which was always. Friends took care of Onew whenever they could. He wouldn’t eat, every time he tried, thoughts of Kibum would be enough to make him push his bowl away with force.
“It’s time for you to move on now” his friend Minho told him one day, eyebrows furrowed as he stood watching Onew read a valentines card from Kibum from last Valentines day.
“I cant” was Onew’s response.
Weeks went by and months passed. They began to chat more often and occasionally flirt with one another. Kibum invited him over to watch a movie one night and Onew couldn’t believe his luck. As they watched the movie, Kibum slung an arm around Onew and they began to kiss intensely, Onew ended up staying the night. This became a frequent thing, with Onew beginning to stay with Kibum every other night.
Then one evening, he received a text from Kibum; “I’m sorry Onew. I don’t want what you want”
It broke Onew's already vulnerable heart even more than he thought possible. The pain came flooding back and he found himself clinging to bed sheets, crying hard. His head hurt, his eyes ached and the pain in his chest was indescribable. Why would Kibum lead him on like this?
It got to the point where Onew could no longer live on his own thoughts, he was given anti-depressants and his friends were warned to watch him. Kibum began to avoid replying to him and it only spiralled Onew into further depression.
Onew had never experienced heartbreak before this and he now knows how much it hurts. Although he will always have a place in his heart for Kibum , he doesn’t know what the future holds for them both as a couple. He still thinks Kibum is the one and deep in his heart, he may move on but he will always have hope that one day, Kibum will return and this time they can make things work.
Does anyone remember me? Haha I've not written since August 2010! A lot has happened since I last wrote something on here. One of the biggest things to happen was when I got my first real boyfriend in November last year and I'm still heartbroken over him so this story is almost like my diary. Everything written here is exactly what happened in real life and yes, I do miss my ex, more than words can describe. I hope one day I will be happy again because trust me dolls, heartbreak is the worst feeling ever. For those who have experienced it first hand, you will know what I mean and for those who haven't experienced it, I pray that you will never have to go through it. Anyway, I really hope you enjoy! my writing is a little rusty seeing as it's been so long! ♥