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Hello kids, I got a mini iPod and a new computer for my b-day it was nice. Colt gave me a really pretty ring. I went to Helen and had a lot of fun. I also hung out with mallory and some JC people and we had a lot of fun throwing objects at michaels penis on my back porch...I found a bunch of my old journals that we un packed from the fire and I found a letter I wrote to my cousin after he died when i was in 6th grade so I'm gonna put it in here.
Dear Jonathon,
Hey, how is it up in Heaven? Its ok down here but sometimes I wonder how great it is up there. I miss you a lot! We all do. I remember the day I found out about you I was in shock. I couldnt breathe, it felt like everything was spinning all at once. All my friends tried to comfort me saying "I know how you feel" but I knew they didnt really. None of them had ever lost someone so young. On Friday we went to your funeral but first we went to your house. I remember seeing everyone, Laura beth, Sarah, your Dad, they all looked so helpless and scared. But the one person who was so helpess and scared was your mom, when I first saw her she looked so tired and cold. The day of the funeral was probaly the worst day of her life, I dont think she even cried, probaly b/c if she did she might not ever stop. You know we never really got to know eachother. We never really talked. Now I wish we had, I wish I could of hugged you one last time, and told you I loved you, Because I never thought I would lose someone so young, but I guess no one did. I guess no one ever does. I love you Jonathon and I always, always will.
~Mariah
It made me sad when I read it. I really didnt know jonathon but for a while I used to cry at night about him...it made me feel selfish, like if I didnt know him than I shouldnt be doing this...I dunno. It's weird b/c he saved like half of my family b/c when he died a lot of them found out they had the same heart problem that he had. I've just been thinking some weird thoughts lately...Well anyways where ever you are out there jonathon, I hope your happy.
Dear Jonathon,
Hey, how is it up in Heaven? Its ok down here but sometimes I wonder how great it is up there. I miss you a lot! We all do. I remember the day I found out about you I was in shock. I couldnt breathe, it felt like everything was spinning all at once. All my friends tried to comfort me saying "I know how you feel" but I knew they didnt really. None of them had ever lost someone so young. On Friday we went to your funeral but first we went to your house. I remember seeing everyone, Laura beth, Sarah, your Dad, they all looked so helpless and scared. But the one person who was so helpess and scared was your mom, when I first saw her she looked so tired and cold. The day of the funeral was probaly the worst day of her life, I dont think she even cried, probaly b/c if she did she might not ever stop. You know we never really got to know eachother. We never really talked. Now I wish we had, I wish I could of hugged you one last time, and told you I loved you, Because I never thought I would lose someone so young, but I guess no one did. I guess no one ever does. I love you Jonathon and I always, always will.
~Mariah
It made me sad when I read it. I really didnt know jonathon but for a while I used to cry at night about him...it made me feel selfish, like if I didnt know him than I shouldnt be doing this...I dunno. It's weird b/c he saved like half of my family b/c when he died a lot of them found out they had the same heart problem that he had. I've just been thinking some weird thoughts lately...Well anyways where ever you are out there jonathon, I hope your happy.