I'm so overwhelmed!
I'm going crazy. Yestday Liesenfeld had me and Shan help him with Alcott 6th graders in band. That was kinda fun, but the whole time I knew I needed to work on my paper for today. Shan had a paper too, so we went to her apartment and had coffee (yum) and worked, but my computer ran out of power so I came home to work. I must have spent at least 10 hours on this paper. I turned it in today and didn't know I had to turn in the rough draft too so I've gotta go back later. And he already assigned a new rough draft. blah.
Today I couldn't go to lunch 'cause I really can't spend any more money. I'm so torn in so many different directions. I want to spend time at Mels, but then I really miss home. I try and tell myself that she wont be upest because I'm really the third wheel anyway, but I still feel bad. I guess I should just get use to not living at home, but it's not easy for me, at all... plus I KNOW that I'm not studying enough. I get distracted around people... I'll end up failing my classes. I should really be working more... I should really be going to the Y. All I do is spend money and eat. I feel lousy. :tear: I CAN'T FIND BALANCE, IN ANY AREA OF MY LIFE! eh!
I feel like the only time I've seen Carey is when he's needed a ride... I feel like I'm hurting those I love, all of them... trying to get stuff done, and I'm still doing nothing. BARG.
good luck with that job Meg!
Today I couldn't go to lunch 'cause I really can't spend any more money. I'm so torn in so many different directions. I want to spend time at Mels, but then I really miss home. I try and tell myself that she wont be upest because I'm really the third wheel anyway, but I still feel bad. I guess I should just get use to not living at home, but it's not easy for me, at all... plus I KNOW that I'm not studying enough. I get distracted around people... I'll end up failing my classes. I should really be working more... I should really be going to the Y. All I do is spend money and eat. I feel lousy. :tear: I CAN'T FIND BALANCE, IN ANY AREA OF MY LIFE! eh!
I feel like the only time I've seen Carey is when he's needed a ride... I feel like I'm hurting those I love, all of them... trying to get stuff done, and I'm still doing nothing. BARG.
good luck with that job Meg!