I dont know what to do.
I've screwed up. Bad.
Okay, i went last week to get another application for college, and i know, i know, 'why'd you wait so long?' and i'll tell you why, because i dont hear ANYTHING back from scholarships and without money, i cant go. I STILL haven't heard anything back, but i figured 'oh well, i'll go ahead' and the local college isn't somewhere you get 'accepted' to. The only reason they reject people is if they didn't graduate highschool or get their GED or commited a felony!
So i was going thursday to get my shots when i realized i dont have the immunizations form. Then i was going to go today, but my sister didn't come home yesterday, so my mom went to get her today...
Okay, the website, my friends, the people I TALKED TO AT THE COLLEGE... NONE Of them said a DAMN thing about Orientation being TODAY! Hell, registration isn't until the END of august!!!
My best friend texted my mom's phone and said 'hey, are you set for college?' and i said 'No, i'm going tomorrow to get my shots.' and she said 'Oh, so i guess you wont be going until spring then.'
... WHAT?!?!?!?!?
After ALL the shit i've been through this year... after EVERYTHING... I cant even start COLLEGE ON TIME?!?!?!?
I cant get a job because i dont have a fucking PHONE! What bullshit! I've applied to two places, got interviews and then when i went in they were like 'do you have a phone number we can reach you at at all times? the one we called was your father's cell phone' and i tell them no that we dont have a home phone and i dont have a cellphone, only my father's phone and my mom's prepaid cell phone thats for emergencies... and they look at me and go '...oh.' and then i dont get the jobs.
... I cant get information about scholarships i haven't already filled out because i dont have a computer that can fucking ACCESS the sites, because this dinosaur is running IE6 and the websites are phasing out IE6, but my laptop i spent money one has wonderful stuff and is amazing.... but the UNGODLY expensive wireless we paid the damn Charter people for DOESNT WORK and they charge us OUT THE ASS FOR IT!
And then my mom called them to just have them disconnect it.... THEY WANT TO CHARGE US TO COME REMOVE THE WIRELESS BOX AND PUT IN A REGULAR DSL BOX!!!!
After ALLL the fucking shit i've dealt with, from losing our home, and having my best friend flip her lid and start acting like her mom, having my dad work 24/7 nearly and not get SHIT because people abuse him being a nice person, and just.... omg
AFTER FUCKING EVERYTHING I CANT START COLLEGE!!!
I'm gonna end up having to get a shitty job i DONT want just because if i cant do college, it'll look like i'm a bum if i just sit on my ass all the time.
Does it ever stop? Seriously?! Its like everything turns to shit. I have SO much i AM going to do but i cant fucking get to any of it!
Fuck this.
Seriously, i'm fucking sick of it.
But seriously, why did they give me an application LAST THURSDAY and not bother going 'oh, you know... you've only got until tuesday, right?' ... just... W.T.F?!?!?!?
I'm going tomorrow to talk to them and see what i have to do, but seriously, i'm fucking done with being shit on. I've spent my whole life not having shit, not getting shit, and not knowing what the fuck is wrong with people who take what they think are 'given' for granted. I'm just...
I'm done.
Okay, i went last week to get another application for college, and i know, i know, 'why'd you wait so long?' and i'll tell you why, because i dont hear ANYTHING back from scholarships and without money, i cant go. I STILL haven't heard anything back, but i figured 'oh well, i'll go ahead' and the local college isn't somewhere you get 'accepted' to. The only reason they reject people is if they didn't graduate highschool or get their GED or commited a felony!
So i was going thursday to get my shots when i realized i dont have the immunizations form. Then i was going to go today, but my sister didn't come home yesterday, so my mom went to get her today...
Okay, the website, my friends, the people I TALKED TO AT THE COLLEGE... NONE Of them said a DAMN thing about Orientation being TODAY! Hell, registration isn't until the END of august!!!
My best friend texted my mom's phone and said 'hey, are you set for college?' and i said 'No, i'm going tomorrow to get my shots.' and she said 'Oh, so i guess you wont be going until spring then.'
... WHAT?!?!?!?!?
After ALL the shit i've been through this year... after EVERYTHING... I cant even start COLLEGE ON TIME?!?!?!?
I cant get a job because i dont have a fucking PHONE! What bullshit! I've applied to two places, got interviews and then when i went in they were like 'do you have a phone number we can reach you at at all times? the one we called was your father's cell phone' and i tell them no that we dont have a home phone and i dont have a cellphone, only my father's phone and my mom's prepaid cell phone thats for emergencies... and they look at me and go '...oh.' and then i dont get the jobs.
... I cant get information about scholarships i haven't already filled out because i dont have a computer that can fucking ACCESS the sites, because this dinosaur is running IE6 and the websites are phasing out IE6, but my laptop i spent money one has wonderful stuff and is amazing.... but the UNGODLY expensive wireless we paid the damn Charter people for DOESNT WORK and they charge us OUT THE ASS FOR IT!
And then my mom called them to just have them disconnect it.... THEY WANT TO CHARGE US TO COME REMOVE THE WIRELESS BOX AND PUT IN A REGULAR DSL BOX!!!!
After ALLL the fucking shit i've dealt with, from losing our home, and having my best friend flip her lid and start acting like her mom, having my dad work 24/7 nearly and not get SHIT because people abuse him being a nice person, and just.... omg
AFTER FUCKING EVERYTHING I CANT START COLLEGE!!!
I'm gonna end up having to get a shitty job i DONT want just because if i cant do college, it'll look like i'm a bum if i just sit on my ass all the time.
Does it ever stop? Seriously?! Its like everything turns to shit. I have SO much i AM going to do but i cant fucking get to any of it!
Fuck this.
Seriously, i'm fucking sick of it.
But seriously, why did they give me an application LAST THURSDAY and not bother going 'oh, you know... you've only got until tuesday, right?' ... just... W.T.F?!?!?!?
I'm going tomorrow to talk to them and see what i have to do, but seriously, i'm fucking done with being shit on. I've spent my whole life not having shit, not getting shit, and not knowing what the fuck is wrong with people who take what they think are 'given' for granted. I'm just...
I'm done.