SP-slash .. How you remind me .. Songfic-trilogy Part 2
here is the first sequel to "dry your eyes" aka the second part of the songfic-trilogy.
Title: How you remind me
Author: still me
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: David/Pierre and one other pairing
Summary: This is how you remind me of what I really am
Disclaimer: I don’t own anything … especially not Simple Plan. And … here’s another song that I don’t own
Dedication: To Cary!!! (I’ve ran out of reasons and ways to say how much I love you) to __deadcloverx because she commented on the story here which means a lot to me (thank you) and to linmcgregor simply because she is my bitch
Author’s note: This is my follow-up of Dry your Eyes and Part 2 of what I call the Songfic-Series. As before, the song-lyrics are in italics. And I might not really get the point of the song … just to warn you.
It’s two months ago that you left. I haven’t heard a word from you. The only sign your existance was that all your things were gone when I returned from work one day. And you had also left your key on the counter.
So, I guess this is it. You really are gone.
The first days after you left were horrible. I cried a lot, more than I thought was humanly possible. I didn’t do much else actually. I barely ate or slept. I called work saying I was sick and would stay at home for at least a week. And except for that one phone call I also didn’t speak to anyone.
But now things are okay again. I’m not the happy person I used to be when you were there but I’m working on getting there.
Still, I can’t stop thinking about you. I wonder where you are, what you do, and mostly who you are with.
I need to get over you. I need to leave you behind. But for some reason, I can’t.
I wander over to my laptop and open it. I go online and wait for my mail-program to open up. After just a few seconds I’m faced with a blank space on the screen and a blinking cursor. I start typing.
“Pierre,
I wonder why I’m doing this. After all the pain you caused me I should let go and move on. But I can’t. Not before I’m done with this.
I know that writing this will maybe cause more pain but I need to get all of this stuff off my chest first. I need to get all this out so I can finally breathe easy again.”
Never made it as a wise man
I couldn't cut it as a poor man stealing
Tired of living like a blind man
I'm sick inside without a sense of feeling
“You can’t imagine what you did to me the day you left. You were everything for me. I didn’t even know what it was like to not be with you.
When you left you took everything that once was me away with you.
I had to learn how to live again. It was hard. But eventually, I made it and this is the final step back into my old life.
Isn’t it funny that you had to leave me before I had to even notice that I wasn’t the same person anymore? You caused the worst pain I ever felt and at the same time made me realise what it was like to be me.”
This is how you remind me
of what I really am
This is how you remind me
of what I really am
“I don’t expect you to apologise. I don’t even think that you are capable of doing that. As if you ever did. It’s not like you said you were sorry when you cheated on me or disappointed me one too many times anyway.”
It's not like you to say sorry
I was waiting on a different story
“All the time I had been your little toy without even knowing it. I would have trusted you with my life. I loved you so much that I didn’t even care about what you did to me. I just let you do it, all the time thinking that deep down you were loving me. And you just took advantage of my biggest weakness that was you.”
This time I'm mistaken
for handing you a heart worth breaking
“There were so many times when I wanted to break up with you, tell you to just fuck off and go to hell. But I never could. All it took was one look from your eyes and I was weak again.”
And I've been wrong, I've been down,
been to the bottom of every bottle
“I knew deep down inside that it wasn’t good for me. The way I let you treat me. But my heart always told me different. If I only had listened to the voice in the back of my head who told me to just kick you out. But I didn’t. My heart always won that inside battle.
But of course, you would hurt me again. And there was the voice again, telling me that it had seen it coming.”
These five words in my head
scream "Are we having fun yet?"
“And you know what? I would always forgive you. I know that you aren’t such a bad person as most people think you are. I know the lovable side of you that no one got to see.
I love the Pierre who would show up in that boring office I work at out of nowhere just because he was missing me. I love the Pierre who would wake me up in the middle of the night, force me into the car and took me out of town for a romantic weekend. I love the Pierre who would pick up his guitar and sing for me just to see me smile.
That’s who I’ve truly loved. And I think I will always love that person in one way or another.”
It's not like you didn't know that
I said I love you and I swear I still do
“But that’s the side of you I didn’t get to see too often. When we first got together it was there most of the time but the longer you were with me, the less it would be visible to me.
You started going out more and more. Sometimes you weren’t at home for two days or longer. And when you were home, you avoided me as much as possible saying you didn’t feel too well.
I was worried sick about you but I let you have your way hoping it would eventually get better.
It never did. If anything, it got worse.”
And it must have been so bad
cause living with me must have damn near killed you
“I don’t expect you to reply to this or even read it completely. But I guess this was the step that I needed to take to finally move on with my life. This is the point where my life with you is ending and where my life without you is beginning again.”
This is how you remind me
of what I really am
This is how you remind me
of what I really am
I sigh and look at the screen in front of me and I feel a smile forming on my lips.
I read everything over again and when I lift my hand to hit the send-button I feel two arms wrapping around my waist from behind.
“Hey Babe, you should have woken me up and not let me sleep through half the day.” Seb murmurs into my ear and kisses my cheek.
I turn around and smile at him. “And damage that ultimate picture perfect? No way!”
I lean in and kiss him on the lips. I feel him smile and run my tongue across his teeth. He is getting the hint and opens his lips to let my tongue explore his mouth.
When we break our kiss to get some oxygen he rests his chin on my shoulder to look at the computer screen in front of me.
“What you’re doing?” he asks nodding at the text that is still visible on the screen.
I turn to look back at the email I was just about to send. I let my head rest on top of Sebastien’s before I let my index finger hit the button that is sending it.
“It’s nothing.” I say, “Nothing. Just some bad memories that needed to be erased.” And with that I close the laptop.
I get up from the chair. Sebastien raises with me. His arms find their way around my waist again and he just looks at me. I could get lost in those eyes of his. They’re filled with nothing but love.
“You okay, Babe?” he asks which brings me back from my daze.
I nod. “Yea. I just … noticed something.” I say.
“Well, what is it?”
“I just noticed how much I love you.” I answer truthfully. It’s the first time that I’ve spoken out these words since …
Since you’re gone.
Seb’s face is suddenly taken by a huge smile. “I love you too, David.” he says before leaning in and kissing me again.
And while we’re standing there passionately kissing each other I notice something else. The voice in my head. It’s there again. But this time it sends the same message that my heart is sending me. They both tell me that I’m finally happy again.
Are we having fun yet?
Yeah, yeah
The End
A/N 2: Okay, the end was a bit fluffy but it needed to be this way. But still, I don’t think this is too bad. You think so too? Even if you don’t, please comment because I’m dying for comments!
A/N 3: Watch out for the final piece of this little trilogy!
Title: How you remind me
Author: still me
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: David/Pierre and one other pairing
Summary: This is how you remind me of what I really am
Disclaimer: I don’t own anything … especially not Simple Plan. And … here’s another song that I don’t own
Dedication: To Cary!!! (I’ve ran out of reasons and ways to say how much I love you) to __deadcloverx because she commented on the story here which means a lot to me (thank you) and to linmcgregor simply because she is my bitch
Author’s note: This is my follow-up of Dry your Eyes and Part 2 of what I call the Songfic-Series. As before, the song-lyrics are in italics. And I might not really get the point of the song … just to warn you.
It’s two months ago that you left. I haven’t heard a word from you. The only sign your existance was that all your things were gone when I returned from work one day. And you had also left your key on the counter.
So, I guess this is it. You really are gone.
The first days after you left were horrible. I cried a lot, more than I thought was humanly possible. I didn’t do much else actually. I barely ate or slept. I called work saying I was sick and would stay at home for at least a week. And except for that one phone call I also didn’t speak to anyone.
But now things are okay again. I’m not the happy person I used to be when you were there but I’m working on getting there.
Still, I can’t stop thinking about you. I wonder where you are, what you do, and mostly who you are with.
I need to get over you. I need to leave you behind. But for some reason, I can’t.
I wander over to my laptop and open it. I go online and wait for my mail-program to open up. After just a few seconds I’m faced with a blank space on the screen and a blinking cursor. I start typing.
“Pierre,
I wonder why I’m doing this. After all the pain you caused me I should let go and move on. But I can’t. Not before I’m done with this.
I know that writing this will maybe cause more pain but I need to get all of this stuff off my chest first. I need to get all this out so I can finally breathe easy again.”
Never made it as a wise man
I couldn't cut it as a poor man stealing
Tired of living like a blind man
I'm sick inside without a sense of feeling
“You can’t imagine what you did to me the day you left. You were everything for me. I didn’t even know what it was like to not be with you.
When you left you took everything that once was me away with you.
I had to learn how to live again. It was hard. But eventually, I made it and this is the final step back into my old life.
Isn’t it funny that you had to leave me before I had to even notice that I wasn’t the same person anymore? You caused the worst pain I ever felt and at the same time made me realise what it was like to be me.”
This is how you remind me
of what I really am
This is how you remind me
of what I really am
“I don’t expect you to apologise. I don’t even think that you are capable of doing that. As if you ever did. It’s not like you said you were sorry when you cheated on me or disappointed me one too many times anyway.”
It's not like you to say sorry
I was waiting on a different story
“All the time I had been your little toy without even knowing it. I would have trusted you with my life. I loved you so much that I didn’t even care about what you did to me. I just let you do it, all the time thinking that deep down you were loving me. And you just took advantage of my biggest weakness that was you.”
This time I'm mistaken
for handing you a heart worth breaking
“There were so many times when I wanted to break up with you, tell you to just fuck off and go to hell. But I never could. All it took was one look from your eyes and I was weak again.”
And I've been wrong, I've been down,
been to the bottom of every bottle
“I knew deep down inside that it wasn’t good for me. The way I let you treat me. But my heart always told me different. If I only had listened to the voice in the back of my head who told me to just kick you out. But I didn’t. My heart always won that inside battle.
But of course, you would hurt me again. And there was the voice again, telling me that it had seen it coming.”
These five words in my head
scream "Are we having fun yet?"
“And you know what? I would always forgive you. I know that you aren’t such a bad person as most people think you are. I know the lovable side of you that no one got to see.
I love the Pierre who would show up in that boring office I work at out of nowhere just because he was missing me. I love the Pierre who would wake me up in the middle of the night, force me into the car and took me out of town for a romantic weekend. I love the Pierre who would pick up his guitar and sing for me just to see me smile.
That’s who I’ve truly loved. And I think I will always love that person in one way or another.”
It's not like you didn't know that
I said I love you and I swear I still do
“But that’s the side of you I didn’t get to see too often. When we first got together it was there most of the time but the longer you were with me, the less it would be visible to me.
You started going out more and more. Sometimes you weren’t at home for two days or longer. And when you were home, you avoided me as much as possible saying you didn’t feel too well.
I was worried sick about you but I let you have your way hoping it would eventually get better.
It never did. If anything, it got worse.”
And it must have been so bad
cause living with me must have damn near killed you
“I don’t expect you to reply to this or even read it completely. But I guess this was the step that I needed to take to finally move on with my life. This is the point where my life with you is ending and where my life without you is beginning again.”
This is how you remind me
of what I really am
This is how you remind me
of what I really am
I sigh and look at the screen in front of me and I feel a smile forming on my lips.
I read everything over again and when I lift my hand to hit the send-button I feel two arms wrapping around my waist from behind.
“Hey Babe, you should have woken me up and not let me sleep through half the day.” Seb murmurs into my ear and kisses my cheek.
I turn around and smile at him. “And damage that ultimate picture perfect? No way!”
I lean in and kiss him on the lips. I feel him smile and run my tongue across his teeth. He is getting the hint and opens his lips to let my tongue explore his mouth.
When we break our kiss to get some oxygen he rests his chin on my shoulder to look at the computer screen in front of me.
“What you’re doing?” he asks nodding at the text that is still visible on the screen.
I turn to look back at the email I was just about to send. I let my head rest on top of Sebastien’s before I let my index finger hit the button that is sending it.
“It’s nothing.” I say, “Nothing. Just some bad memories that needed to be erased.” And with that I close the laptop.
I get up from the chair. Sebastien raises with me. His arms find their way around my waist again and he just looks at me. I could get lost in those eyes of his. They’re filled with nothing but love.
“You okay, Babe?” he asks which brings me back from my daze.
I nod. “Yea. I just … noticed something.” I say.
“Well, what is it?”
“I just noticed how much I love you.” I answer truthfully. It’s the first time that I’ve spoken out these words since …
Since you’re gone.
Seb’s face is suddenly taken by a huge smile. “I love you too, David.” he says before leaning in and kissing me again.
And while we’re standing there passionately kissing each other I notice something else. The voice in my head. It’s there again. But this time it sends the same message that my heart is sending me. They both tell me that I’m finally happy again.
Are we having fun yet?
Yeah, yeah
The End
A/N 2: Okay, the end was a bit fluffy but it needed to be this way. But still, I don’t think this is too bad. You think so too? Even if you don’t, please comment because I’m dying for comments!
A/N 3: Watch out for the final piece of this little trilogy!